Almost four months ago, 113 days to be exact, I wrote a post, giving the love of my life permission to die. Four months ago I didn't think I'd ever wake up with Brian beside me again, and yet, here we are, still going "strong", still living life, still enjoying experiences and creating memories!
It just goes to show you...never give up, even when you think there's no hope. None of us knows what tomorrow will offer; actually none of us knows what the next minute will offer! Let's face it... life is full of surprises, good ones and bad ones, but for today, at this very moment, I'm eternally grateful that my life as I know it, didn't end those 113 days ago.
Brian continues to gain strength; we actually got out and went for a dip in the pool on the roof today. Knock on wood, I think this wave is passing, and many more good days are in our future. As hopeful as we both are of that, I am going to continue to live in the moment, and enjoy every single one of those moments that we have together.
Thank you again, to all of you who have supported us on this journey. <3
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I am so glad to hear thst things are going better.
I am begging you please give that horse apple stuff a try.
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Thank you @doomsdaychassis! Ok, since you're begging, I can admit that I misplaced the name of it! What is the name again; my Spanish is off, but if I go asking for "horse apple stuff" I know no one will understand me :)
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There is always a postive side....keep blossoming everyday and live it happily..👍 stay blessed
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I agree @steemflow, and everyday I search for just that...the positive 😅
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So happy to hear that Brian is gaining strength and you're so optimistic and about things! :) Great news. I hope it continues to grow more and more for both of you in good ways!
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aww thank you so very much @apolymask ... for this and your positive support always :)
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Yea, hope is the one thing that we have, keeping us alive. It helps us look forward to better days even when the present circumstances isn't in our favour.
Thanks for sharing @lynncoyle1
Am glad to hear that things are going on well between the two of you. Cheers!
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Thank you @aduragbemi ! I appreciate your support 😅❤️
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What a great blessing you both are to each other. Such an inspiring story and in all honesty...makes the problems that I have seem like little tiny problems and that is a blessing to me because it is so easy to focus on the bad in life in stead of the moments that we have now. Thanks so much for sharing this here and God bless you both and I wish for you the longest, sweetest, full of joy life that you can have!
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Thank you so much @battleformyheart! It really is so important to not focus on all the tiny little problems that this life offers us, but instead to focus on the good. ❤️
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@lynncoyle1,
Lynn, I went back and read your earlier post.
I cannot recall reading a thing more romantic. Two people volunteering to take the pain upon themselves so as to relieve it from the experience of the other.
Gold is only ever purified in a crucible of fire.
Everyday ... is a day. A day never before lived, and hence a day worth living. So live it. And when there is no tomorrow, as is unavoidably the case, you can at least say, "Yes, but do you not recall yesterday? And the day before it?" And it is in that recollection that such days, and the lives that were lived within them, live on.
Notwithstanding my Intro Post, the post below was the first poem/article I published on Steemit. Although it's written about mothers, I think you'll get the gist.
https://steemit.com/poetry/@quillfire/two-beats-poem-a-tribute-to-mothers-of-fallen-soldiers
Quill
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Thank you so much @quillfire! That's interesting you find it romantic, the gesture I mean. I completely understand and agree, you're just the first to say it.
That poem is beautiful. Death and love. One we are all assured of, the other, if we're lucky.
Thank you again ❤️
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Oh man!!! Did you just give my day a boost at 3.00am?
Mindset, perspective and being enveloped in love for your soulmate makes all the difference. I know this is a sensitive comparison, but I am sure from previous chat between us you will know exactly how I mean what I am about to say...
Since that post you wrote, many, many people have left this life many of them having no clue what was coming...But the double-act still keeps on going, what I am saying of-course is that you never know how things are gonna pan-out, I know you sounded as though you did not expect this amount of time back then. You chose to search for the good days, to keep enjoying the embrace of your other half and look for the upsides that are not immediately apparent at the tragic and world shattering time of diagnosis of that hideous disease.
And yes, you made the brave and yet unconditional love driven decision to write that post giving the most selfless permission any of us could ever imagine, that post cut each and everyone of us to the core I think.
As I always say with regard to seeing some...Any...silver lining in the most appalling circumstances, it can be a help and can create a reference point that helps us to process things that are hard, painful, almost impossible to comprehend.
One that you may not have foresaw is that ((ofcourse)) it made us all think about our own lives BUT over the last 113 days maybe we have not taken our mortality, our relationships, our lives for granted! I am not saying that should be an enormous comfort as you are going through this more-than-tough time, just that it is true and an indirect spark of love that you both somehow have given.
I bet there are still many days when you wanna smash things up and swear at the world...As lovely as you are, you are human right? there is always a "why us" feeling...I think that is completely natural. Give the Bri-Guy a hug from the BC gang and when he hugs back...That's for you from us Lynne...
Take great care and keep grabbing all the fun, hugs and laughs you can for as long as ya can...You know you are loved here but I thought I'd tell you one more time :D
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Oops I posted from the wrong account lol...I am sure you can work it out easily enough haha. Take great care lovely Lady :)
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haha figured it out! And I love the idea behind this new account too :)
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Thank you so so very much @stowaway ❤️ Your comment and this especially,
really does give me enormous comfort! In a way it gives some reason to all of this! Thank you ❤️
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That's the spirit. Never lose hope and continue living. Life is precious.
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Thank you so much @legendchew 😅
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Love that the wave is heading back out to sea. xx
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You said it sista! 😎❤️
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I'm so proud of you both! Y'all have learned that everyone's time is "Now".
Namaste, my friends.
JaiChai
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Thank you @jaichai; it's the only place to be :)
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Hi Lynn. I'm happy to hear you both are enjoying time together. Cherish the wonderful moments together. A dip in the pool sounds divine. We're trying to take advantage of it ourselves. I just realized that I am not a very good swimmer! Lol. Hugs to you both!
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Thank you @beeyou!
haha you're just figuring that out now?:) How long have you had that pool? lol
Hugs right back! Hope you and yours are doing well :)
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This post makes me very happy. I hope you guys got in trouble from a lifeguard for horseplay or something.
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haha give us a little time @profanereviews and we'll stir up a little shiza here alright 😎 Thank you❤️
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haha! pure joy to see this post, may you write another one like it each month forever! God bless you guys!
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I sure hope so @janton! Keep those prayers comin' :) Thank you!!
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So glad to hear he is having a good spell, long may it last
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Thank you @tattoodjay! Fingers crossed it lasts a long time 😅❤️
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Lynne, you're the best medicine that Brian could ever have!!
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awww thank you so much @livinguktaiwan ❤️
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YES! I pray that it continues and that you both enjoy peace and rest during the time. Still praying for that healing. I believe it can happen! :)
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Thank you so much @themanwithnoname! I believe it can happen too ❤️
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You are a reminder everyday to meet life head on everyday. Keep strong. Life is wonderful. Thanks for this post @lynncoyle1 it made my day :)
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Oh @steven-patrick, your comment made mine :) Thank you!
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Oohh my dear @lynncoyle1.. those wirds make me cry a happy tears now 😊 your positive energy so vibrant and love create miracle and so happy for both of you. Even though another waves will keep coming but You All ready to ride on with the love boat, we're going to be your wind😉
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oh @cicisaja, that is so sweet of you to say! Love really does make the world go round!❤️❤️❤️
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@lynncoyle1, glad to hear that things are going well, and as to what you said about living in the moment, well that is all any of us ever have, and all of us should life in the moment at all times, only that way can you really enjoy and appreciate what you have! best to both of you!
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Thank you so much @claudiaz! Living in the moment is what Brian and I have always done, but sometimes with his health, it's a fight to keep my mind away from the "I wonder...in the future" kind of thoughts! I try not to though because there's no real answers there anyway :)
Thank you again!
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the future holds "whatever we create it to be", and that is the hard part for us to grasp, because we tend to focus on "worst case scenarios" and blow it all out of proportion. But you are absolutely doing the right thing, focus on the "present"you have and that way get to enjoy every moment to the fullest! blessings to both of you.
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Thank you very much @claudiaz! That's it exactly 😅❤️
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:)
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Fantastic to hear he is doing a bit better. We will keep our hopes up for him and for you. Life is made up of all those minutes hours and days added together. We never know who is knocking on the door, it could be the tax man, the ferryman, or an angel. Let us all hope it is always an angel tap tap tapping on your door.
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awww thank you @bashadow! That is so sweet of you to say 😅❤️ I hope only angels for you too!
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Lynn this is such good news to hear... I am thrilled to hear that Brian is getting better! That is truly amazing and a gift for sure. I hope you both have an amazing amount of wonderful times ahead and cherish each one of them like you have done these past 8 months. I can't think of 2 better people that I've met that deserve happiness more, so you just made my weekend before it even starts! :)
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awww thank you Dave! What a sweet thing for you to say; I'm glad I made your weekend!! ❤️
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@lynncoyle1 yes it is very very awesome... I'm still happy about it!
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Awww. I am so glad to hear that he doing well and that you guys are happy. Nice of you to be able to draw motivation from that incident, indeed! We should never give up hope but try to cling to tiniest hope left.
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Thank you so much @kweenbrand ❤️
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Oh Lynn, I'm so happy for you! I hope you will still get thousands of days together! There is always so much love in your posts. You two were made for each other!
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awww thank you so much @delishtreats ❤️
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both looking nice.:)
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Thank you @sherbanu ❤️
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I am happy to see this "Brian continues to gain strength" :) I pray for more days like this. Lynn, you are one strong woman. My regards to Brian.
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Thank you so much @gracefavour; Brian says hi back, and we both appreciate your prayers! ❤️
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Thank you for the update @lynncoyle1. It's so good to hear that this last wave may be passing and Brian was able to take a dip in the pool.
I couldn't agree more with "never give up hope" especially with illnesses. You just never know what is around the next corner. It is a different attitude from living in hope I feel.
Never give up hope, but keep living in the moment. You both seem to do that so well. I admire you both so much.
Heaps of love! 💙
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aww thank you so much @gillianpearce!! Heaps of love to you too ❤️
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I wish you guys many more happy days together 😘
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Thank you so much @anonymity5 ❤️ I hope you are well!!
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Never give hope and think positive my dear. I am so happy that Brian feels better. Sending good vibes your way.😊
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Thank you so much @starjewel 😅❤️
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“What day is it?” asked Pooh.
“It’s today,” squeaked Piglet.
“My favorite day,” said Pooh.”
I couldn't help it! ;)
You and Brian continue to inspire this community with your strength and positive attitude - even though some days may be harder than others - you always keep the hope alive and not afraid to share the deeper valleys.
Happy to hear that things have been better and that you are able to enjoy new adventures together.
Much love to you both always
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awww I love that @youhavewings! All of life's important lessons can be found in Winnie the Pooh 😅❤️ Thank you so much!
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So happy to read this!
I remember that post, and it broke my heart. I'm so glad so much time has passed and you guys are still going strong.
That's indeed an important lesson many people - me included - still have to learn. I'm a slow sudent when it comes to life lessons, but I'm keeping myhopes up that one day I'll finally learn :0)
Say hi to Brian for me!
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I remember how that post affected you @simplymike! I've lived in the moment most of my life, but now it seems really important to do! haha you'll learn one of these days!
Brian says hi back :) Hope you and yours are having a nice weekend!
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We're trying to, lol. Living in the moment is not one of my skills right now, since it's 5am and I want to sleep a little more so badly ;0)
Gonna try and make it work, yawn!!
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haha @simplymike, stay off the damn phone/tablet whatever at 5am. Simple! Problem solved 😅
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Lmao.
I had to go check the previous comments in this conversation, because I was afraid I had done it again: take a benzo to be able to sleep, but keep on going on my phone, only to find out in the morning that I've been writing comments with so many typing errors they are almost impossible to understand.
It wouldn't have been the first time, lol, so I'm very relieved this was about something else :0)
The thing with 5am in the morning is that you can have actual 'live' conversations with people. During my daytime, at least 80% of all other Steemians are asleep. So if you ask someone a question, you need to wait like a day to get an answer. That is not always beneficial if you want to keep a conversation going.
It's 1am now, but I'm not going to wait till everyone is up and awake tonight. I've got anearly appointment :0)
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Ahhh the benzo comments! Now I understand a few from before @simplymike 😎
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Lol, there have been quite a couple :0)
But in my defence: I also have fat fingers and very small keys on my phone ;0P
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God bless you guys @lynncoyle1. The strength inside you to continue this journey is what’s being witnessed.
“F cancer.” (Again)
The only color tattoo on my whole body:
.....it’s a long story.
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aww thanks @dandays! "F cancer" is right!! I have a feeling there's a very personal reason for that tattoo.
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So glad to hear Brian is gaining strength. Never give up hope. Miracles happen every day. Love and blessings to both of you. Please give Brian my best!
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Thank you so much @jbreheny! Brian says hi and smiled when I told him you were working at the store there now 😅
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It has been quite the adventure. Julia is working at the General Store and is having a crazy time over there. So far I think this might be my favorite place on Earth. Tell Brian every time I see a raven I think of him and I see them a lot here.
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That is so great to hear! You guys are creating the best memories!!!
And such a sweet thing to say about the ravens! Brian said thank you :) ... me too!
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It's so true. I see those magnificent birds every day.
I just posted some incredible buffalo footage, you should check it out.
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I will! Thanks for letting me know ;)
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It is life, and no need to worry what will happen tomorrow @lynncoyle1. We only need to enjoy and respect what we have now. wish you all the best my friend.
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That's so true @el-nailul! Thank you so much for the support 😅
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sometimes we have ups and downs , when i'm down, when im in hopeless moment, i try to remind myself i will go up and rise again , i will shine again, its the game of life ,happy to see you are in high emotional state <3
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That's so true @michellebonaroti! Thank you so much ❤️
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@traciyork ❤️ CUTE!!!
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So great to hear the wave is passing. Wishing you many more waveless days ahead.
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aww thank you @headchange 😅❤️
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I cried while reading this. Love is indeed powerful
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aww you're sweet @unyimeetuk ❤️ Thank you
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fantastic news. I remember that post well @lynncoyle1 and reading this post today is really amazing. No tears at all reading this, instead I send you both warm smiles and sooooo much happiness xx
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Hooray! I didn't make you cry @paulag😅 Today was an even better day! Every day seems to be an improvement, knock on wood somewhere! Let's hope it continues!!
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So wonderful to hear @lynncoyle1. Prayers for continued great days :)
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Thank you so much @robertandrew! Your prayers (and everyone else's) must be working because today was another good one!😅❤️
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It's so awesome that you can enjoy every day, every moment together like this.
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Thank you @goldendawne! All the positive vibes from here must be helping because today was even better for Brian😅❤️
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This is so great to hear. I believe with you that it's going to get better. I always enjoy how positive and loving you are. Looking forward to even more positive news.
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aww thank you so much @johndoer123!! Life is difficult enough some days without being positive; I can't imagine how hard it would be if I was an Eeyore all the time haha
All the thoughts and prayers must be helping, because today was even better 😅
Thank you again! How are you doing?
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Pretty good. I've had a couple of down moments here lately, with Evan's mom going to jail and rehab. But we are making it through it. It's tough on him, and henceforth, tough on me. But we perservere and always try to look to the positive. He is getting better as he his beginning to accept who his mom is, and what that means for his life. ...Some hard lessons for my little bear to learn, but I do the best I can to help him with understanding and still being loving. Keep your heads up and we send all our love your way.
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Aww I'm sorry to hear that @johndoer123! It's so difficult to watch our children go through difficult times and not be able to "fix" it. That's a very tough thing for a kid to deal with, but I'm glad that he has you to help guide him through it all.
Thanks for the love and I'm sending the same to you and yours ❤️
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I am in need of a double lung transplant and currently testing to go on the transplant list. Life can be so fleeting and we must all enjoy every minute.
Sending outward love and light. xx
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I'm so sorry to hear that @aprilpeerless! Life really is about the minutes, isn't it?!
Sending love and light right back to you as well ❤️
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