I want to write my first post in english, as I am a spanish native speaker, I will ask you to please don't be so tough. I just realize that I am the kind of person who only can feel conditional love, because every time I think that I love someone, if this person disapoint me I think that it is time to review my feelings and go away. Starting from my parents, I expect them to support me when I am sad or worried, from my husband I expect protection, support in front of my children and respect of course. From my kids I expect respect, confident and consideration. Finally from my sister I expect fraternity and time to be together sometime in a while, but from friends, what do I expect from friends? I think loyalty and expect time together.
Today, I could see myself as selfish, just because I get so angry when I don't feel those love signal from the people that I think I love, until the point that I just put myself apart from them, it make me very sad and I think I also lost my self-confidente and self-respect.
Therefore, I am a selfish and I have to start dealing with this in a healthy way, no because the other but for myself, for my own self-respect. I need to learn how inconditional love feel.