"Hey, Asshole "

I'm an asshole
Cause the sun is shining
But I am not smiling
And I don't know why
I know I'm often told
That there's a pot of gold
But I don't see no fucking rainbow and my coffee's cold
I know I should be grateful
I know I'm good and able
But I don't have the strength to get up from the kitchen table
This kind of shot comes once
Another opportunity of a lifetime just slipped away
And that's the fifth this month
but when you take a punch
Don't you ever forget
Why you get up and you put one foot in front of the next
Got the power of my will
I don't wanna win a mil
But I'm looking out my window sill
Gotta take a bitter pill
Gonna pay for what I did to my head and my heart'll foot the bill
Got a foot in my mouth and because I'm kicking myself I developed
A habit of knocking out my front tooth
Looking uncouth
Want to hear the truth
Give it to me straight
151 proof
Telling myself it'll happen when I'm happy
But I'm climbing up a ladder that has got no end
Hung up on a rung I'll never make it to the top
I'm looking at the bottom and I must descend
All I want to do is buck this trend
Everybody need a buck to spend
And I'll be working on myself, til I work on someone else
Til I get there Ima just pretend
I know I'm often told
That there's a pot of gold
But I don't see a fucking rainbow and my coffee's cold
I know I should be grateful
I know I'm good and able
But I don't have the strength to get up from the kitchen table
This kind of shot comes once
Another opportunity of a lifetime just slipped away
And that's the fifth this month
but when you take a punch
Don't you ever forget
Why you get up and you put one foot in front of the next
I'm an asshole
Cause the sun is shining
But I am not smiling
And I don't know why
When I'm in a crisis
In a moment of silence
I look under my eyelids
And I'm checking my mileage
I been using a pool of water as a mirror but not for style it's
So I can reach in and pimpslap my reflection for acting childish
Spent a half an hour sitting at the bottom of my shower
Lettin the water run over my body and dammit I wanted to get up
But I didn't have the power
(I don't have the answer anyway)
Don't want to panic but I gotta come clean
because the plan of the planet is just mean
Knew if was tough, but dammit it's obscene
I've been huffing and puffing up to the top of the summit
And I'ma rough it if I have enough steam
I'll keep on coming and coming until I'm coming with the stamina of a salmon who's heading upstream
I'm an asshole
Cause the sun is shining
But I am not smiling
And I don't know why
And I don't know why
And I don't know why