Pondering #manifestchallenge

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I have spent this entire year trying to settle my husbands and my estate. It’s kept me so busy that I have barely had time to maintain a part time job. It was a rare occasion when something went right or smoothly. It took six months just to get to the point where I could legally sell our assets! Try managing the stress of covering a physicians bills with less than 10% of a physicians income. That and managing the emotions of two small children who lost their father the way they did. This has not been the most fun year of my life. It’s been a constant question of “when am I going to run out of money?” and “what am I going to do when I do?”.

I have spoken with @arbitrarykitten about visualization throughout this process. A month ago she told me she was doing a manifest challenge on steemit. She had talked to me a little about steemit before this and tried to tell me I should join the community. I thought it sounded great. I was happy for her success on the platform but I didn’t know if it was for me.

I was in Seattle in October for my brothers wedding. My home in Texas closed the day before the wedding and funding was coming through the following day. Finally something that went smoothly…well, not entirely, it was a two month process. I had to replace my roof and I accepted a low offer…

Knowing that my checking account was going to be replenished from the sale of my home, I decided to turn the wedding trip into a vacation for my children and I. God knows we have needed a vacation. So, I contacted my dear friend and headed south for a visit! It was great seeing her and her boys again. I can talk with this girl for hours! She, of course, brought up Steemit again and tried to tell me that I need to join. I thought about it a little more seriously but still wasn’t convinced.

She also brought up the manifest challenge she began on the platform. We talked about visualization and how it can improve your life. I told her that I use to have hopes that things worked that way in the universe.

Then… all of this happened in a two month time frame:

• My AC broke in my home in Texas
• The cleanup after the estate sale fell through
• My houseboat ended up with rats because it had been empty for so long
• I hired the absolute worst cleaners to help me get things ready to put on the market
• My house was in a danger zone for a wildfire
• My boat salesman spent the night on my boat with a woman and got banned from the marina!
• My dryer fried in a very, very small lightning storm
• My son flooded our apartment as well as the apartment below us!
• I had to replace my roof on my home because of hail damage, but of course the insurance company said there was no hail damage so there was no help there…
• My husbands very expensive convertible was keyed down both sides
• I hit a semi-truck tire on the interstate and did $2K in damage to my car

I told her that I have given up on that whole positive thought theory. I’ve maintained a positive attitude and have remained hopeful since my separation from my husband last year but I GIVE UP! Things just weren’t working out. This theory was doing nothing for me.

Our vacation ended up lasting 10 days! We visited another friend in North Washington and then went on to Vancouver. It was an amazing trip and was everything my kids and I needed to recenter and relax. I spent the entire drive back to Utah thinking about everything @arbitrarykitten said to me, about steemit and about her manifest challenge and ended up requesting to join shortly after I returned home.

Since visiting and talking with this amazing girl in Seattle, that I feel fortunate to have met, my life has begun to turn around. I have a buyer for my boat! I’m keeping my fingers crossed on this one. I’m going to start house hunting soon, and I can see a clear and positive path for the future of my family. Not to mention Steemit. This community has been a wonderful, positive, and motivating community. I discovered this morning that my intro post made it in the top 20!!! You can catch that here if you haven't had a chance to read! https://steemit.com/introduceyourself/@jewels3/my-introductiona-glimpse-into-my-life

So! Thank you @arbitrarykitten for your positive influence in my life and for your #manifestchallenge (that I avoided for the first week because I just didn’t want to go there in my mind).

I’m going to go back to the beginning and see what happens!

If you haven’t seen her posts on this please check them out! This is the post that got me thinking about all the positive changes that have come along since our conversation! https://steemit.com/manifestchallenge/@arbitrarykitten/ever-onward-and-upward-plus-a-recap-manifestchallenge-day-16