LOVE YOURS [INCONCLUSIVE]

I have many unfinished articles/thoughts in my draft I will never revisit because I'm lazy. Rather than delete them, I have decided to dump them here. Well given the fact that I don't make shit-posts and I'm sure my unfinished work would still provide you with some insight into my mind and life. Enjoy

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It's about 1:00 am in the morning. I'm stressed but still fighting because I here to make a buck or two. However, this happens to be the most peaceful time of the day. I enjoy these moments because I tend to reach deep into my mind and reflect on life and everything in general.

Currently listening to one of the best tracks from my favorite music albums, Love yours by J Cole.

No such thing as a life that's better than yours

I have spent the last eight months trying to put my life back together. This led me away from everything, friends, love, everything. I made a conscious decision to limit the noise in my life and focus on something. That said thing being steem. And yes it has paid off. At the same time, it as also been a lonely journey. I have lost touch with almost everything and sometimes I tell myself that there is no going back to the life I once knew and loved.

I have prioritized money over relationships. I have come to the conclusion that the only true way I can be happy is having/working for all I want and that can only happen if I invest my time in productive things. I have stopped believing in people. I know this sounds contrary to everything we preach on here but I'm not too naive to believe anyone would forgo their own interest for mine. There was once a time I believed this though. And that led me to make sacrifices I sometimes regret. I'm not one who dwell too long in the past but I have these memories I cannot forget and making the same mistake twice would be stupid. I see relationships as transactional and people will naturally gravitate to things that would benefit them. No one wants to lose but even if that was possible it will create an imbalance.

Someone has to lose

Sometimes losing isn't a bad thing. Sometimes we need to lose so others can gain. Sometimes we can afford to lose because it has little or no impact on us, but for the other person, it might be if life-changing.

Who is willing to make those sacrifices?

No one. That's what you should expect. That would be the only motivation for you to get things done. Rather than expect charity, you engage in meaningful service.

I never try to sell anyone something they cannot benefit from directly or indirectly

This is part where I begin to go off point. Sometimes I don't make sense.

Charity exists. There are people willing to give their time and resources to people without expecting any form of return but they are few. Your best option would be to offer them something of value. I have heard people talk about how people are always talking about the same things on here--steem and that true because it's the main thing people value here and if you're going to succeed here you will have to do the same (maybe until we fix things here). Same with the relationships built here. I'm not saying it is a bad thing but I want you to be aware so you don't get disappointed when people act in their best interest. People talk about powering up steem but most of the people here live off steem and you cannot cut such people off because they are most likely the ones posting everyday (sounds like someone I know). The bottom line is that people will most times pursue their own self-interest before anything else.

And here I just decided I was going to abandon this shit and get some decent sleep. Best decision. There are many posts such as this one that never makes it do steem.

Now I have to go feel the full force of my depression and top things up with some sad music. Don't worry about me. Been there, done that. I will be fine

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