Pay check to pay check!

I, as many people are, am working paycheck to paycheck. Working paycheck to paycheck has sculpted me into a different person. There once was a time when I did not have to do this. Weeks would go by sometimes before I would have to deposit or cash a check. It's not because I make less money now, but because I have a family to take care of. Both me and my fiancee are working really hard for our paychecks. When you work paycheck to paycheck, you have to really be on your toes and think outside the box to make it all work. Me and my fiancee, are both putting in time and effort into jobs that are not really our passions, to put food on the table, cloths on all our backs, and a roof over our heads. The fact of the matter is that we are in survival mode. We have to make money inside of this civilization to buy the things we need to survive. We are in survival mode because we are living paycheck-to-paycheck to provide for the ones we love. My fiance has three children two young girls and a 18 year old son. The amount of money that goes into making sure that these children are fed clothed and have a roof over their head is enormous. These children are my fiance's but I treat them as they are my own. Their happiness, their betterment, fills me with joy. I take this responsibility very seriously. I don't have the ability to be irresponsible and not work. I can't just quit and do nothing, I have to provide. As of late I've become very tired of my job. I no longer enjoy working as a locksmith out in the hundred twenty degrees heat of Phoenix Arizona. I wish I could just quit, I wish I could give up, I wish I could move away with my fiance and her children to a cooler place. But that takes money a lot more money than I have the ability to do right now. Even though I want to quit, I will not! By not giving up, and not breaking or giving into my desires. By not being weak, and pushing to be better and keep making money for the ones that I love, I become tempered steel. I become stronger not giving into my weakness everyday that I keep pushing and making Intelligent Decisions and working hard, I become stronger. The reason I'm sharing all of this with all of you it's not to brag, it's not for pity, but to tell you that I am not alone in this, there are many like me. They work hard for their family, they provide for their family, they love their family. I am sharing this to give credit to those that works so hard doing something they don't really want to, for their family. I applaud you, I respect you. In my book you are a hero. When I was by myself and only had to worry about myself, I really didn't know what it means to sacrifice for others. In the three years that I've been with my fiance, going on four, I've learned more about people and myself then I ever could have imagined or would have on my own. Those that love each other and have a family and are working for their children's benefit you are the best of the best. You define what it means to be truly human. To those in the same boat, i hope you don't have to spend one second more then you have to in this situation. May you soon prosper. With much love and respect, I bid you good day or night where ever you are in the world!