The morgenseiten of Katharsisdrill 7 - The NO-hat

I have not been using Mastodon much for some time. Maybe I will again, just posting my art, expanding my audience. But the reason I suddenly got tired of Mastodon was that I posted a drawing, and was told that I could not post such things publicly, even with the ¤nsfw-tag. The terms of service for my instance was that sex scenes was forbidden. But look at it! It looks like a nineteen fifties illustration of the Tales of One Thousand and One Nights.

Evening drawing from this post

Back then I just replied politely, erased the post and haven't looked at Mastodon again. I do not like any type of censorship, not even for the most stupid Nazi-troll, but having to remove this on what is considered a free leftist media was just too much. What happened to the whole anti-puritan part of the left???? I know that there are still people who think like me - also among the younger generations, but everything is drowning in this conservative shit disguised as philanthropic consideration.

Today I again looked at my account on mastodon.art and ho, I read this:

Considering beginning posting with tags about healthy choices and self care that is not related to "workout and vegetables". To add a voice of "saying no and going early to bed can be a self-caring and a healthy thing too" - kinda thing.

So what is the problem in this? Of course it can be healthy to say no and go early to bed... right?

This is not an attack on the person who wrote this - he or she might have had many good reasons - I only use it as it illustrates a tendency in the discussion you see on the internet and in the real world. It shows a defensive, anxiety-ridden egocentricity that is not capable of making anything good or beautiful in the world. It can only lock the person into his or her own little safespace. And it is most often said by privileged people who grows up in the rich part of the world.

I have been sitting with people I know well, and they have said to me that I ought to learn to say, no. When they do their eyes looks inwards and I can see that they are talking about themselves, how saying no has been a way to ease their life. But there is one thing they forget. If I followed their advice I would have had to say NO to them a hundred times. They wouldn't like me or my wife to turn them down - they have relied on us saying yes so many times. I am not saying they haven't given something back, they have in their own way, but They can take this self protecting advice and stick it up their arses.

It is a healthy thing to say yes. It is a healthy thing to give more than you receive if you are in a position to do that. This is one of the reasons I like churches and other temples. A lot of people building something together that is completely useless, often even from a theological point of view. They all put a lot of effort and money into a piece of commonly owned beauty, and some of these temples still stand after 1000 years, giving pleasure to the great-great-grandchildren of the builders - It has nothing to do with religion, it has something to do with giving.

I will keep saying yes, and I will keep going to bed late.

My friend @shortcut has started to write some posts every morning - #morgenseiten he calls it - morning-pages. Here is his explanation of the project:

It goes like this: you shall each morning write from the soul, anything going through your head.

He writes a lot more, but this is the essence :) (Read his first morgenseiten post here)

I have decided to try the same. I write from the top of my head every morning or late morning if I have been sleeping late. I only correct typos and make a headline afterwards. Else everything is left as written. Expect some of it to sound like stage directions.

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