Fight for your dreams

This is my first story, I hope to cheer you up and make my personal experience a motivation for you to pursue your dreams and fight for them.

To start off, I've been recently diagnosed with depression and social anxiety. For a long period I didn't want to do anything, I wasn't able to feel happy, laugh, enjoy a movie or some music even with my friends. For 6 days this summer I was sleeping for 2 hours every night, when I was waking up I couldn't get up, I was exhausted and sad. So I've decided to go to the emergencies at the hospital to get help by a psychiatrist. I was diagnosed and prescribed medication SSRI's and anti anxiety meds.

I've started taking them for a while and was feeling much better after 1 week, much more energetic, I was able to read, listening to music, enjoy company and most things normal people can do without drugs. Now I've decided to stop the medication with the advice of my doctor of course. It is really hard, especially sometimes in the day I feel the same as before my medication and I don't want to be again in that place but I've decided to not let myself down. If I am able to do it with medication, I can do it without it also.

My personal dream is to become a programmer, I love coding and the whole logic behind it and I am trying very hard to catch up whatever I've missed all this time while I was down. Since I've started my medication until now I've created some programs that I wasn't able to create before, not very difficult or for important purposes but I feel much more complete inside.

Here are some lyrics that motivated me a lot < If you add creation in your day, when the night comes you will be peaceful, the good and the bad things will get a meaning, from our mind will erase every obsession>. I've translated them from my language, so they might not rhyme but they are full of meaning for me.

I wish you liked it and to find the meaning and happiness in your life