Really thinking.

I haven't said this to anyone. I mean that, nobody.
However, I am seriously contemplating another huge life change. I am REALLY tired of struggling in BC. I mean I love my province don't get me wrong. But the prices are going up and up, and getting less.

I am tired of only being offered shit jobs (PLEASE DO NOT think the current job I have i think is shit, because I don't. I like what I do, and I work my ass off doing it.) I am just really tired of struggling in BC.

I've been checking out Alberta. So far I found one job which is promising. However, I have a fucking TON to think about, if I was going to relocate.

First, I know there would be a court battle. There was the last time I tried to move. Although it was denied, I can see it happening again.

Second, the kids won't appreciate another long huge move. We would have nobody out there, I mean that literally. I would be starting off alone. (now I have friends here and in Kamloops...)

This just reminds me of when I up and fucked off to Toronto in 1997. I came back in 3 months. I don't know if I can do another move.

But I am trying to think of the best interest of my kids. Struggle, or not? You know what I mean? Plus i'd have to factor changing everything over, putting shit in storage again, not letting people know because they would flip their shit.

I am just trying to plan for our future. I mean I can't seem to find fuck all in my field here. I don't know how much I want to struggle. I want to finally get ahead, not continue to go further behind.

Lots to think about for sure. If we did go, it would be stretched over several months...as I said, court battle etc.