I've loved & I've lost. I've lived & I've learned.
Many people that I've cared for, deeply, only exist in my memories now.
That's just part of life though. I'm 24 years in & still have such a hard time coming to terms with this.
I leave a piece of myself with everybody that I grow a connection with.
I'm starting to realize I'm disrupting my own peace by doing this.
I've known what I want for years now.
Every time I meet somebody that I feel like I can grow with, I invest 110%.
I'm starting to think this is a mistake. I'm always the one accepting everybody's flaws, their insecurities, every mistake of theirs.
One wrong turn on my end? & it seems to be game over. The connection is done. The bond is broken.
But you know what? It's okay. Lessons come with the pain.
I wouldn't be the person I am today if it hadn't been for these experiences.
Deep, deep down... I live for them & I would die for them.
So, who would I be if I just gave up on everything that I believed in?
That'll never happen. I may be hurt now, but I'll recover. I always do.
As for the person that I was just involved with, I wish you the best, just like I have for the rest.
I left a piece of me with you, just like I have for everybody else I've ever made a close connection with.
I'm here if you need me.
Much love.
