A very interesting story of your life and the way you go. Diseases always signals to us that something is wrong in our life. They help us to get the right way and don´t wanna harm us. Long time I thought that a disease is a terrible thing. Since I was a teenager I had skin problems, pimples all over my skin. I felt ugly and worthless. I tried so many things with eating healthy food and it was a long process to get a better skin. But it´s possible and that makes you strong.

You are right that someday we all will die, but I think that´s not our final end of life. Our soul is immortal and we fear is not needed! We are here to makes experiences.