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I may at sometime return to painter. At least i know i am a painter now and yes steemit definately could help me with that. The paintings I currently have completed are to raise money for people and projects i personally know in Nepal. I always promised that if i felt i had enough that the rest would be to help others and the collection I painted in nepal is a way of doing that.
I feel like in my.50's i am on the biggest learning curve of my life, nepali language, thai language, steemit language, creating online presence to sell my art work, phew...
Stick with the mediatation. I dont practise very much. Just the thought of it calms my mind and observation.of the breath naturally coming in and out of the nostrils, noticing the mind when it wanders and gently coming back to breath is enough.
Keep being you. Authenticity will find authenticty, i am sure. Slowly we will find our people in this community and will build authentic relationships and eventually rewards...in many forms....all the best with your dreams and happy to support them as I know the up side to less...