Steemph.cebu New Year Challenge | My Steemit New Year Resolution

We always think about where we were last year on this day, and where we are now. What were we thinking on the day before New Year's Eve or before 2018? Of course, we have plans to celebrate or to stay home alone. Most likely we entertained thoughts of an even happier year ahead and that includes the awful things that we want to leave behind before the coming New Year.

These are the lists of the things that I wanna remove, modify or simply to improve myself in order to become a better person this coming 2018:

Worry, anxiety, and expectations. I'm afraid to expect too much for fear of being disappointed. I'm also afraid that if I voice my dreams and wishes out loud for the universe to hear, it will jinx myself and I might not attain those dreams and wishes. I'll try my best to openly express what I want, I am sending those dreams and wishes out into circulation. I have every reason now to be optimistic. I will allow myself to believe.

Over anticipation. My tendency to imagine the worst case scenario. The worst case scenario does not prepare me. All it does is keep me in a perpetual state of high alert. The best case scenario is equally likely to happen. So I change from the worst to the best and live to the joy of possible outcomes.

Relationships that hurt me. I have been living in limbo in one of my relationships. I am not sure of where I am going, and I may not even be sure of what I already had - or thought I had. Whether this is a romantic relationship or friendship, it was always special to me. I deserve the certainty that this kind of bond can offer. I don't deserve to be unsure or what to expect. I need to raise my expectations, and demand what I deserve. I can do better than a state of unknowing.

Negative people and negative environment that scares the living daylights of me. My inner child has been hoping to come out and play, but I sometimes caught up in responsibilities that don't allow me to enjoy life. I need to take some time for myself, and go out and play. I will spend more time with those who fill my heart, less time with those who leave me exhausted, resentful, doubtful, or confused.

A job that can't fulfill my frustrations. I have been on the same job for so many years, though it pays me well, I'm on the same routine where it gets dull and boring. I am now looking forward to returning to a hospital setting where I can transfer my skillset back into the professional arena.

Don't be a stubborn. I may think that I can never have the resolution I want. I may be hoping for an ideal situation, and that may not be plausible. I need to think of the greater good, and have the power to end an uncomfortable situation. A compromise would be worth it.

Here you go, guys! I think I have stated enough the things that I wanna change about myself. :)

Thanks for reading! Wishing everyone here to have a blessed and a fruitful New Year! <3

Don't beat up yourself if you cannot attain your desired resolution. Change for the better takes time, baby steps are better than no steps. Make your goals achievable.