Working out perfect getting the documents to file my paperwork under - hardship in life category. There are documents given by institutions I interacted with as I was having anxiety that correspond with a drop of income and becoming behind on debts.
I've had flashbacks of memories of those times as I'm gathering the pertinent documents. The anxiety and stress when my parent was mentally unstable and went homeless. Good to realise the shock/depression I've been feeling. I'm refreshed now for sure after having a time of reflective distance. She is not homeless anymore and on medication but still there are struggles.
I found a new Trinity these last few years. Some industrial bands close to areas I grew up in and close to uncomfortable vibes I've lived through. Skinny Puppy, Ministry and Front Line Assembly. I've got in touch with my front line and this is my assembly. !!! I'm strong enough to face the anxiety see the situation and be my own angel when I have to. Had a good synchronicity with angels on the radio. It was a song with lyrics about angels. Flipped the station and it was announced another song about angels! Angels is also a rad song by Delerium a wicked ambient project I liked back in the day. It's from their new album Mythologie. The founder is Bill Leeb, the lead singer of FLA. It's a good trip. Life is turning around. Now all I gotta do is practice what I preach and I can't lose to be great to myself.
Angels don't need morals. They are in a realm beyond it. They aren't doing anything that could be labelled as immoral either.
Ok I stay strong with the ethers! The fighter sprites! that can out articulate any psychological gremlins.
You just need backers to those boasts. That's the meaning of getting strife right.