I should have finish this story like 30 minutes ago but I can't stop watching Deadpool's promos at Youtube... :p

I just lost a best friend today..

No, she's not dead.. She just want me to fuck off from her life. Reason? For me it's something petty and not be taken so seriously but she did anyway and that's made me sad but at the same time I stop give a shit because life had been giving me lemons everyday lately so meehhh...

It all started 2 days ago when I went for an interview at a Japan electronic company here at Malaysia where she works. She's been really encouraging, really helpful and really excited for me because she knew I can do it and yeah I sure did. But things got a little twisted after I told the HR that I'm diagnosed with arthritis, just recovered from my trigger fingers and need to attend follow ups at the hospital for the arthritis.. Oh sure I know that I'm going to be let down immediately when I told that but from my past experiences, it is better to tell them the truth even though its going to get hurt rather than you got in but fuck everything up and hurt everyone else.

Yes, I messed up many times before at my previous work place and it hurts my colleagues feelings and annoyed them that they had to sit in for me every week because I always got sick. Yes, I got more people hates me than liking me so you all can probably guess how bad I performed at work before from all that bad vibes I received.

Well, since I'm getting better now, I really don't want that to happen again.. Nuh-uh.. And later that night, I Whatsapp-ed my best friend and told her what had happened and she got mad at me because I'm being 'too straight' and made a status of it saying "like a ruler..". I got triggered and hurt and made a friendly mocked saying that maybe I should just follow my uncle's advise to stay at home and rest because I'm a ruler and I easily broke in half. I don't know if what I said was just too much or not because for me, it's nothing. It's a friendly mocking joke that any friends can take but she kept yelling and said nasty things to me and just cut it off the beautiful friendship just like that..

There's more but it's better I cut it short.. Well, there goes my story and now here's the positive things that I learnt :-

1. To embrace the harsh realities and have fun because there's more unfortunate people out there other than you.
   It's hard for me the first time I got sick. That time, my parents just divorced, my sister got sick and we're financially and emotionally not stabled. So I worked myself too hard to get things better again but boom! I too also got sick and the world seems like falling on me. But as time passed and with the supports from my families and friends, I actually managed to get up and felt strong and now I can even make fun of it. Acceptance.. I accept what's in for me and that helps me feels better :)

2. To speak the truth.
   Only on what's really need to be tell though.. Like what I did during that interview. It actually helps me to know if that work suits me or not by discussing it with the HR and supervisor. I don't want to repeat the same mistake all over again because of my selfishness and ignorance. I can't let myself become a mean person just because I'm desperately need money for buying games and go on a holiday.

3. I'm sleepy and tired. I should stop typing now..

That's all for tonight.. Hope this motivational quote I got from Google will explain everything.. Images are credited to the rightful owners.