Open Letters Challenge||An Open Letter to the Woman who Abused Me..

Do you still remember how I begged you to give me the last chance to say goodbye
On how you blocked me off with the cold words :
"We are done, I have someone else already"
WTF its a shit i felt for your answer
My love, I am not asking you to come back to me.

All I want is to see your face and be with you a little longer.
All I ask was a little time my love
Just a little time is all I ask
In exchange for the time, I will lose you for the rest of my life
but You didn't give me a chance.

My love, you didn't even give me a chance.
My Love, do you still remember? When were you loving someone while we are still together?
When you left me all alone? Because you chose him over me.
You said he makes you happier than I can.

I wanted to ask you before on
What I did wrong, but I chose to remain silent and cry all the pain away.
My love, you heard nothing from me, I didn't stop you from leaving me.
But My Love, do you remember the day you came back to me? I accepted you with open arms.
Even though that was the first time you left me.

But My Love, did you come back to me after realizing I was the one you truly love?
or did you return to me after he left you?
Did you really come back because you can't find another person like me?
or is it because you just don't want to be left alone?
Did you really come back to me because it is me you have chosen?
or are you just checking whether I am still the same old fool who loves you?
How can you do these things to me?

Maybe I made mistake in how I loved you
I spoiled you so much that you know I can never turn my back on you
That you can leave and come back anytime you wish
I made sure you felt that I loved you more than you love me
You took advantage of this feeling because you know, I can never say no to you.

I was wrong.
I was wrong to love you excessively
Despite that, I pity you.
Cause you still settled for another even though
The person who can give the world to you is right on your face.
You have hurt me and scarred me, My Love.
Now I chose to cure the wounds you have inflicted
Not for myself, but for you.

I just wished you know that behind every smile I shine in the morning,
are teardrops that flow endlessly at night.
That behind every word "I'm Okay" I stammer upon,
are pieces of me that you have shattered.
Pieces of me that can never be whole again.

For every moment that you leave me, you tear away a part of me with you.
You never returned any of these pieces whenever you returned to me.
Nothing My love. Nothing.
My Love, do you know how it feels to completely lose yourself?
Being unable to eat due to severe depression.

Detaining myself in my room to avoid the question why my eyes are sore.
Sleepless nights I had to bear with, relentlessly asking on what I did wrong?
My body screaming from illness because my brain can't handle the questions anymore.
My Love, I never had the chance to tell you how much torment I faced everytime you left me
It's not because I want to keep it a secret,
but it's because you never had time to listen to me. You often made me felt I was nothing.
I can see how happy you are with him.

My love, I can see you how much you love him.
I can see how much you care for him.
Things you never did for me before. It hurts so bad.
It's excruciating to see how proud you are him
Me, on the other hand, was someone you hid from everyone.

It agonizes me to hear that you can't live without him,
while I was left in the dark whenever you feel like it.
It really painful to see how you are patiently bearing with his attitude
that you can't understand, you used to complain a lot about my character
when I do some things for your sake.

It hurts me so much to see you treat him like a prince,
On the contrary, I was treated like crap.
You are so prejudiced. You changed to be better, but it was for someone else.
It hurts so bad. My love, it hurts like death.

My Love,
do you remember how I gave you millions of chances?
I don't remember ever pushing you away.
All asked of you the last time we talked was a bit of your time.
Because I know that, this will be the last time I can have a glimpse of you.
This time. You are never ever coming back.
My Love, I can clearly remember how you denied me of your embrace..
But my love, after all the destruction I went through.
I want to let you know that ----
I love you, and now I set you free.
and finally, I forgive you for everything.

Sincerely,

The Man That Got Away.

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