Steemit Open Mic Week 77 - Silence (Waves of Life) - naTHAN Kaye (Original Song)

in openmic •  7 years ago  (edited)


Please forgive my emotional intensity in this song sharing. This song is very close to my heart with an important message that needs to be shared about a subject that gets swept under the rug.


In a flood of tears, I penned this song within the first hour of finding out about Neil's suicide. After his passing, I felt his spirit visit me to say that he'd made a terrible mistake (but he couldn't take it back). His soul wanted me to try to prevent more unnecessary deaths.

The hairs on my skin still rise every time I play this song. Can you feel it too?

The song is an invitation to feel deeply about those that have left us, whilst reminding us about the philosophical understanding of the 'waves in life' & to communicate about what we are feeling inside...

This is dedicated to all who have survived the black dog of depression. If you're feeling down or having thoughts of self-harm, don't be embarrassed or shy or afraid, please contact your country's suicide prevention hotline right now!

30% of sales of this song go to Suicide Prevention Australia.

Lyrics


Silence (Waves of Life)

Spoken word intro:
We go through the waves of life.
We go through the up waves. The good times.
We go through the bad times. The down waves.
Nothing lasts.
The good times don’t last. The bad times don’t last.
It’s the cycles of nature.
Sometimes, when some of us are in those low waves, those low times, they can forget that the good times are coming back, like my friend Neil, my friend Pat (also good friends Evren, Daryl, Krystle).
So I find it really important to say that we must communicate how we’re feeling inside.
A problem shared is a problem halved….

Verse 1:
Neil, my friend,
What made you feel so bad that you had to make it end?
Neil, my friend,
What made you feel so sad that you couldn’t bend?

Pre-chorus:
Did you have to break?
Did you have to break?

Chorus:
Silence is not the way,
Silence is not the way,
Silence is not the way,
Lean on me,
Lean on someone today.

Verse 2:
Neil, my friend,
What message were you trying to send?
Neil, my friend,
What made you feel so bad? So sad.

Pre-chorus:
Did you have to break?
Did you have to break?

Chorus:
Silence is not the way,
Silence is not the way,
Silence is not the way,
Lean on me,
Lean on someone today

Pre-chorus:
Did you have to break?
Did you have to break?

Chorus:
Silence is not the way,
Silence is not the way,
Silence is not the way,
Lean on me,
Lean on someone today.
Today. Today.

Neil, my friend, we miss you.
Kneel, my friend, before the altar of your mind.


If you want to hear the album version, which is really powerful, click this link:

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Credits
From the album, Waves of Life, released October 25, 2016
Instruments: vocals, acoustic 6 string guitar & fx, electronic foot-drum kit - Nathan Kaye

Written, performed, recorded, produced and mixed by Nathan Kaye at Dreamseeds Sound Design Studio.
Stem mix and master by Michael Stavrou
© Nathan Kaye 2002



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Songwriting copyright © & ℗ Nathan Kaye 2002. All rights reserved.

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HOLY SHIT!
I'm crying hard
I'll try to comment later... I promise :_(
Thank you Nathan

Me too!

Me three I cried on the inside

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I'm sorry, honoured and grateful for your response @hedac!
I'm sorry if it brought up pain, but I'm honoured that this music cracked you open and grateful that you still reached out to me to communicate in this way.
Thank you!
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  ·  7 years ago (edited)

I'm sorry my comment was not eloquent. I couldn't write.
The intro was already good... wise words, "a problem shared is a problem halved" and then the lyrics of the song, powerful message "Silence is not the way" ... boom! hit me.
Then the way you performed it at the end. Of course I had to cry. Who not? But then feelings started to flood something bigger inside me and I couldn't control it. I had a bad day yesterday. Don't be sorry. It is good to crack sometimes and let the pain go out. And you helped to do so in a powerful way that for me is hard to crack by myself. So thank you! Today I have recovered and I am good. And now... I'm sure the next wave is going to be a good one! And if it is another bad one... I'll have to halve it.

Thank you very much!

I felt your initial comment. Don't worry.
Btu thank you for coming back and sharing this with me. It's important. I need to get comments like this to help give me strength to keep going on with this mission when I'm feeling disempowered or low myself. These words of yours help me.
The least I can do is crack you open with my music. We should leak the heavy emotions out and be cleansed by crying so that we and those we love are not burdened by them.
I love the way you said, "I'm sure the next wave is going to be a good one! And if it is another bad one... I'll have to halve it." That is beautifully poetic!
Thank you @hedac!
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Oh Nathan!!! I cant barely reply because I am deeply touched and moved.......We need to communicate and look out for each other!!! YES!

Thank you @massivevibration!
That you were touched and moved that deeply is the highest of compliments!
Keep sharing the love around with all you meet.
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wow I was incredibly moved my friend! love the intro on this was felt, songs like this speak so loudly to the soul, this was fantastic. you always blow me back

Thank you so much @soundlegion! I just read your review in your top 5 list and resteemed it. Thank you so so much! xxx

This song stopped me in my tracks and touched me deeply. I had to walk away from my computer for a bit and regroup after hearing your meaningful, soulful lyrics as it brought back some emotional memories.

I have lost a few good friends to suicide and drugs. They were crying out for help and even though I did everything I could to help them they took their life anyway.

You're so correct when you say there are good times and bad times. It's just a cycle of life and it's so important to remember during bad times that these difficulties will pass and good times will come again. I feel so sad some of my friends forgot that.

This song is a beautiful reminder that this too shall pass and thank you for that reminder.

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Dearest @luzcypher,
This topic gets swept under the rug so much and yet I kept losing friends to suicide that I just reached a point where I said, "enough is enough"
and realised that if my music could somehow save some lives, then I will bloody-well use it to try to do exactly that!
In fact, I thought that if it each song I've written about this topic (there are many - a whole album) saves at least 1 life, then I've achieved something miraculous.
The first time this song was aired on radio someone called in to the station to say they were just about to take their life, but stopped.
This exact thing has happened with 2 of the other songs on the 'Waves of Life' album.

All I can say is that each time someone plays this song or I share it live, Neil's spirit, and also Everen's and Krystal's souls, reach out through the music frequencies into someone's heart.

Wow! The power of music, huh? Miraculous!

Anyway, I'm so honoured that it touched you deeply in this way.
Thanks so much mate!
huge Blessings to you, my friend!
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Behold the power of music. You're right, if it saves one life then it has done its job of reaching that person. I have lost too many friends to suicide and drugs and it really pisses me off.

Life is so precious and there will always be good times and bad times. It's just the way it is. People need to remember in the depths of despair that good times will return again. Life is full of cycles the wheel will keep turning.

Life is so precious!
All we can do, bruthaman, is keep inspiring, nurturing and helping others as best we can. If we live that truth by nurturing and inspiring ourselves, people will feel that veracity vibe off us...
I do it through my music. You're currently doing it through Open Mic. I'm certain that it's pulled people back from a dark place, mate. Thanks for making it happen.
Thank you for being you @luzcypher.
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Music is magic in that way and yes, many people have told me that Open Mic and Steemit has pulled them out of their funk and inspired them to make music again. It's what keeps me going.

These are some of the most interesting times we live in and there is so much to live for. I feel grateful every day.

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Miraculous!
You're doing an amazing thing with this, so whenever you hear some idiot whining about it, just remember that you are saving people.
Bless you mate!

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Listening and watching yet again, mate - and I just have to tell you how I so much appreciate and dig on on your footwork insofar as the percussive elements of this gem is concerned... Right on, brother!

Yeeeeessss! I wondered if someone would notice the drums at all. I guess it's a compliment that everybody was too swept up in the emotion of the song to notice the footwork. I mean, that's what good music should do, where the individual instruments blend and subtly underpin the song to take people on a journey, but it's so great that someone noticed and that someone was you, mate. Only an astute fellow musician would pick it up.
Thanks @passion-ground!
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My partner @hedac first listened to your entry and inmediately called me to have a listen, there we were both sobbing (literally) while listening to it. In many ways we have faced many ups and downs. I know myself about being low and finding my thoughts worrisome (not to that point) but I have some gloom and doom engraved in my spirit that sometimes makes me doleful. I'm not so ready to share openly here but I understand and it resonates in places it hurts. I sometimes sing Annie´s song: just thinking about tomorrow clears away the cobwebs and the sorrows, bet your bottom dollar than tomorrow there´ll be sun. In dark times we easily forget how to kindle a smile, yet the power of a smile can do so much. I also had a friend that "broke" and she left way too soon. Curiously 3 days before I had been with her and she seemed so happy and having had some "messed up times" behind. They were family issues, nothing so serious but had been neglecting eating and she was frail. Still last thing I remember of her was her sparkling radiant smile, apparently full of a hope that was not entirely real... as she decided to take her own life soon after that. I always felt I failed as a close friend to read the signs and for the longest time I felt guilty. I always thought, being life so wonderful (and despite struggles I think it is) what makes someone reach that extreme? First time I got really depressed I understood how your brain can trick you. Keeping things inside is not healthy and some need to overcome a silly sense of "shame" of "not wanting to bother". So they swallow until choking with sorrow. I understand it now but I don't want to be down there. Beautiful performance, really powerful and emotive.

I'm so moved and honoured by your words and very grateful that @hedac called you over to listen to this.
Thanks so much for opening up like this here. I'm certain that if someone else feeling low were to read these words they would feel less lonely than before.

It rocks us so deeply when we lose a friend this way. They leave a wake of unanswerable questions and confusing emotions behind them for us to come to terms with. By doing that they've unwittingly burdened us with their troubles, but it's too late and we can't help resolve them, so they may as well have reached out to us before they had taken their final action.
That's why I try to encourage open communication around this so that the burden is shared and can potentially (likely) be resolved and healed.
But we can't get stuck in the past of 'would haves' & 'should haves' as it serves no good purpose.
All we can do is be aware of our own inner state and check in with others in our community to see how they're really doing.

Anyway, thank you so much!
Blessings
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nice music..i like music dear @nathankaye.

I can relate to this on so many levels - so much so atually, that I'm not able to listen to this at the moment. I'm currently coming off one anti-depressant, so I can try something different, and my emotions are all over the place. And if this is the same song you shared last week (ish?) on open mic, I already know it will wreck me. Don't get me wrong - that's a very good thing, because it means your words and music are incredibly powerful. Bright blessings to you, and anyone touched by this.

Since my VP is so tiny, I wanted to do this instead - tip!

Thank you so much @traciyork!
Your comment here means so much to me. Thank you for bravely sharing and knowing where your own limit for maintaining balance is too.
Massive blessings to you!
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Bright blessings right back atcha, @nathankaye! 😊

Such a heartfelt performance. That last break vocal was otherworldly... it felt like a deep deep cry! Losing friends or family to suicide is devastating and the guilt can be unbearable. Thank you for sharing and for promoting awareness to help prevent suicide.

Thank you so much @otage!
You really listened in closely and you 'get' why I do this and I deeply appreciate that.
Cheers mate!
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Hi @nathankaye! You have received 0.1 SBD tip from @traciyork!

In a flood of tears, I penned this song within the first hour of finding out about Neil's suicide. After his passing, I felt his spirit visit me to say that he'd made a terrible mistake (but he couldn't take it back). His soul wanted me to try to prevent more unnecessary deaths.

I can't even...

<3

Love and blessings to you...
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  ·  7 years ago (edited)

very touching... so many times we think that we can/should (must) resolve our problems by ourselves, and at times the world seems to heavy for each person to bare alone... Its so important to reach out... and its also important to be patient...

Such wise words @ankapolo.
We must all hold each other through the tough times, as well as being there in the happy times.
So many people feel alone and the system is geared that way. That is why we must do everything we can to help and nurture one another.
Thank you!
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When you played this song on the radio last week and left everyone in silence, it was an amazing experience. Like I told you before, I was a few days until the anniversary of the day my best friend had taken his life and this song hit me hard. I am so glad that you made this post today, because I had been thinking about him all morning.

You are truly a gifted musician and one of the few that I have found that puts real emotion into his music. Thank you for sharing your talents with all of us. You are helping more people than you know.

Dearest @derangedvisions,
I was deeply touched when you reached out to me last week and again this week. Reading these heartfelt words of yours give me the power and focus to keep doing this mission with my music. Thank you ever so much, mate!
massive Blessings to you
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Music is very nice good post

It really is very nice you should totally listen to it .. 🙃

Hey @nathankaye
What a great song! Had goosebumps throughout the track. So sorry for your loss. Depression is indeed something bad - creeping up one's soul and dissolving your hope. But yeah, like in your song one needs someone to lean on and things will go upwards again.

Anyhow, fantastic OpenMic entry Nathan! Love your work!

Thanks so much @slacktmusic!
I’m touched that you had such a visceral reaction to the song.
Blessings mate
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Nathan im really glad you shared this at helpie. It's beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. Its crazy how music allow us to express our feelings so clearly sometimes. Sorry about your friends man. Thank you for sharing.

Thank you so much @solburgos!
Yes, music can be powerful and delicate at the same time. It’s certainly a mysterious and miraculous thing!
Good vibes to you
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OMG! this hit me hard ! listened the whole way through !... what a powerful song , thank you for this and for sharing the awareness over depression. It is a real issue and we are ignoring it much as a society , so many lives would have gone differently if we had just paid some more attention.. thank you @nathankaye , you have a beautiful soul . A big hug!

Thanks so much @pechichemena!
Bro, I just reached a tipping point where I couldn’t be silent about it anymore. Hopefully others feel it too and our communities become more caring and connected more and more.
It takes a beautiful soul to see the beautiful soul in another.
I’m honoured that it touched you so much.
Bless you mate!
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So so very beautiful and powerful dude... Thank you for sharing such a heartfelt and important song. Not only do I suffer from depression and anxiety, but I also know the pain of loosing someone to suicide. And I always try to share the message that there are people out there to help anyone in this situation. And I try to be that person in my community.

"Crying washes me clean of the pain..."

I just absolutely love it and that is so very true. I know a lot of people out there just think that no one cares and that no one is there to listen, either because they are too busy or they just think that it isn't important enough to communicate. But they just don't realize that communication is the first step in helping the good waves return. We are the solution. We can stretch out a hand and let people know that we are there for them no matter what. Even if I have problems going on, I'm still here for anyone. I've actually thought about starting a discussion night for my friends and family around my home town to help with this problem. Just somewhere they can go to talk and get those heavy weights off their shoulders. But people are still afraid to speak about it, especially in a group setting. I find that talking with like minded people helps me to find the answers I need to further my healing process and in making myself a better person as well. Thank you for sharing this. It's absolutely beautiful and your voice is more powerful than you know! Lots of love to you dude!

Aaaahhhh @rockchickjen!
Thank you so so much! Thanks for bravely sharing you personal experience and wisdom.
And I'm deeply moved that this song touched you in this way.
Hopefully this mission of this message gets out to more and more people!
We need amazing, beautiful, caring hearts like you out there doing great things!
The initiative of having a regular meetup is a really awesome idea. You should do it! You'll save lives!
massive blessings to you!
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Thank you for sharing! I always love to hear your music! \m/

wow i liked!

Thank you! 🙏🏽

So much sage wisdom, sorrow, and sadness shared in this most passionate tribute to the human condition. Beautiful, Nathan - simply beautiful!

You're so right, brother - we need to be man enough to cry, brother - and to rid the silence that subdues us. Keepin' it clean, and keepin' it real... Thanks for bringing this to the fore, mate!

Mate! Thanks so much @passion-ground!
You said it so saliently in this comment!

We all have a part to play in making the world a better place by extending our arms and hearts and arts to embrace everyone in our 3D and virtual communities....
Thanks so much for really taking the time to listen in to this song and this message... You 'get it' and that means the world to me!
Blessings to you bro!
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Wow! Great song!

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thanks mate

Blessings you bring brother. It's a gem you share here, truly... I'm happy to hear that you're bringing light to the darkness in a place that can be tough to illuminate. I too have lost a good friend to suicide and it seems the more energy we put into sharing, reaching out and speaking, the more likey it is that someone who needs it will be touched.

The emotion you share is real and indeed what is needed. The tears we shed are healing, and thanks for encouraging the healing drops in my eyes.

Happy to have you as a point of connection in this mixed up world.

Shalom bruthaman @mountainjewel!
It warms my heart to read these words and gives me much gratitude to receive your compliments, mate.
Thank you so much.
We each make the world of difference when we share, create and listen with intention and connection. We can save lives by our daily actions.
Honoured to be connected here with you too.
Keep shining!
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The tears began before I hit play and continued through this powerful performance. I am the survivor of suicide. My beloved mother killed herself at age 56, several hours after calling me and a long conversation where she told me much of what was wrong, but never said she was choosing to end her own life. Two of her favorite sisters had taken their own lives many years prior and that pain ate her soul. Although she had promised she would not follow them (years prior she'd made two failed attempts), she shot herself alone in her bed.

The song touches that deep cord. The things we say to ourselves in the night, those questions that we ask ourselves, that vacuous emptiness that nothing and no one can shake as we grapple with the loss of our beloved. I had asked her on the call if I could come in to town and see her because she was feeling so down. She said no.

Six hours later, she pulled the trigger and our lives were irrevocably changed.

I have found some measure of peace, but that is relative statement since the loss by suicide is one of the most painful to come to terms with.

100% upvote. Much love to you and comfort. Thank you for speaking out on this topic. I agree, it must be broadcast.
lean on me
a trouble shared is a trouble halved.

Shalom @wandrnrose!
Thank you for your deep sharing here.
I’m on my phone so I’ll reply more comprehensively when I’m on my computer.
Blessings and luv-light to your heart!
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Nice music mate, ain't pissing in your pocket either ;)

Cheers buds! 🤙

An absolutely beautiful song bro @nathankaye. Grips the souls and heart.
Sorry for your losses, you have created something so inspiring here

Thank you so much, mate! I'm deeply honoured that you felt it!
The losses have been great and heartbreaking, but the gains in helping people have been far greater. God bless you! 🙏🏽

You're most welcome, I was there with you in those moments you created musically. Yes indeed the gains are great in helping people. We, you and I, speak from the same place regarding this topic and knowing the impact of music. Please, if you get the time, check out the poetic verse blog I recently did. My music has also prevented strangers and friends of mine from commiting suicide and I am sure this song of yours will reach tthe right ears in need of a wake up call to know that it is not too late to turn around.

https://steemit.com/my2018/@verbal-d/my2018-this-is-my-hobby-creating-and-sharing-positive-conscious-and-inspiring-hip-hop-music-to-all-original-blog-rap-verse

Thanks so much bro.
Yes, we must do what we can the best way we know how, and as artists we have an extra bow in our quiver that can be used to help people in ways that even we don't often get to see.
It warms my heart to hear that your music has also saved lives @verbal-d! But it doesn't surprise me, because you've got talent and you're allowing Great Spirit to come through you.
Blessings mate!

I could write many words but you said most of them. I’ve been there, in the darkness, digging out an ever deeper hole for myself with a mighty tool - my thinking. In time, I learned about the waves of life, how to detach from thoughts and how to observe instead of being consumed by them. But not everyone does. Thank you for not being silent - and boy with a voice like yours, how could you be?!? ❤️

Ahhhhh. Like a breath of fresh air your words give respiration for any lost soul! Each of us must stop the mind from looping around on negative thoughts. It takes time to recondition the mind, but well worth it...
May the message reach far and wide and our communities be united, be safer, be more connected and more supportive.
Thanks so much for sharing your heart here.
Blessings to you
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wow that is one emotional performance man. It really made me emotional too. And sorry to hear about your loss bro.

Bravo for writing this to help raise awareness of a subject that is still not discussed enough.

Certainly in the UK you do hear it discussed a bit more on TV but it's slow progress.

Everyone who does something like this helps with that momentum.

Sorry for your loses and keep doing what you are doing.

Thanks so much mate.
Yeah, just in the last year or so it has started to be talked about a little in Australia too. I'd so love to be able to take credit and say that was because I released the 'Waves of Life' album dedicated to the topic, but in reality, it has just started reaching a critical mass point where the frequency of this tragedy is happening far too often. Yet as you sapiently say, "Everyone who does something like this helps with that momentum."

Thank you so much @atomcollector!
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