Sometimes I just feel like the world is out to get me. That it is just too hard to get anywhere in the world.
It is so easy to spend all of your money, but it can be so hard earning it. The expression easy come easy go is only half true.
I think sometimes about all the companies that have done me wrong, and it is difficult not to feel bitter about it. I ruminate on how they did me wrong and that I should have been treated better. And sure, in most cases I left a negative review and forsook doing business with them, just still, sometimes that feels like it isn't enough. Sometimes I wish there was more justice in the world. That people could get what they really deserve.
I was recently banned from one of my favorite games. It was devastating and for some charges I didn't do. I appealed, and they rejected the appeal. And there is nothing I can do about it. I lost my account over something I didn't do, just playing the game as intended.
I'm very sad about the event, but more than that, I feel powerless in the world. If I can be robbed so easily virtually, why can't other aspects of my life be robbed in the same manner.
Perhaps there is a silver lining in this. Perhaps an almost positive and happy life wouldn't make for the best story. Perhaps no trials would be boring. Perhaps playing the game was always a waste of time.
And perhaps, some part of me knew this was bound to happen someday. That playing for countless hours with a small risk of a false positive meant this would always eventually occur crossed my mind. Well, I guess that finally did occur, so one small blessing is I was slightly mentally prepared for it.
Still, it is a chapter of my life that I have to put a stop in for now. One that I miss, especially as I think about the fortune I built in the game. But perhaps, the game was always a waste of time. Getting banned means I have to spend more time doing other things, like writing. Maybe I can be thankful for this experience as without it I would have never written a novel. Who knows. In any case though, Jagex sucks.