I will try to steem on for a while and not to do more. I am in no condition to do anything else and I just wanted to rest because my insides are just revolutionizing against me. Now I will not eat anymore of that shrimp stew that my mother cooked because of what happened right now.
That is the reason I wanted to get strict on my diet because one wrong meal and I am out of commission. Add to my demise was this awful after-effect of my Parathyroid medicine. We have a love-hate relationship as I love it for taking my dreadful body pains away but it makes me want to puke every day of the week and month.
I hate my situation so I am always excited about my dialysis session because it washes away the terrible side-effects of my Cinacalcet and momentarily I could eat again and would enjoy it too. So with my short life here on earth I also have a small opportunity that I can feel normal about eating.
Now I must rest my digestive system for a while and do an intermittent fasting. I just ate about 10 hours ago so if I would eat after 10 hours more it would be a nice resting time for my tummy. I do not have any appetite anyway so it is just easy for me to do that.
How I wish that I could eat normally because anyone with their good minds would not prefer to live like this. Maybe I am just crazy trying to see the light of another day but that is what I know the right thing to do. I hope that my body won't conk out on me because I just want to win against this adversary that is proving to be the worst nemesis that I am fighting against, my own body.