New Parent - Tired AF

My wife and I welcomed our first child into the world on Monday morning. Wow! What an incredible experience. It was gnarly to say the least and I have been feeling so many emotions surrounding it; but that's for another time.

Our daughter is four days old and as many new parents know, she doesn't sleep a whole lot. My wife is a champ, and it has been incredible to see overnight how she became a mom, a badass mom assuming all this responsibility. The middle of the night feedings are rough. I wake up and try and support her with positioning the Boppy and pillows, getting her water (breast feeding makes her thirsty), timming the feedings in the Baby Tracker app (which we like a lot) and keep her company. But I kinda suck at this.

I am tired AF and can barely keep my eyes open. I know, I know, she is the one doing all the work, just labored and gave birth and no is nursing the baby and hardly gets a break. I don't know what it is, but I struggle falling in and out of concisouness and sleep. The pediatrician today said new dad's become def. He gave an example of how at about a month in he woke up in the morning and asked his wife how the baby slept. She said that he didn't sleep well. He asked why didn't you wake me. She responded, I tried infew times and you wouldn't get up so I knew I was on my own. He said he didn't even realize and it's not that he didn't want to help, he did, he was just so exhausted he was "def" to her calls for help.

But, I also think women are stronger than men. Or there is some instinct in them that is heightened or better. They will do anything at any time for his child. I will too, as long as it's not the middle of the night (that was a joke, I would do anything for my daughter). I don't know the answer and frankly can't think clearly on this little sleep. Just some observations and thankful my wife is able to nurse in the middle of the night and take care of our little peanut.

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