Dear Diary: My Motivation for Posting Here at STEEMIT

My Love to Write

I love to write but lazy to make my post quite interesting enough to be called a blog so I just call it a "Diary". My motivation is my love to write, and I write about anything but not about how I had gone to a 5 star restaurant and had some of those hundred dollar foods, no. I would love to but obviously I can't because I can't even walk without grunting my way off this bed.

I can only write about what I know but I would also like to write about a carefully researched and long article complete with pictures and with corresponding sources in interesting formatting but the articles here only earns in seven days and after that it is then pushed down to the STEEMIT crypt where it can be used again for reference purposes only and possibly gives added reputation to the author if it gets an upvote but will never again earn something for the author. So I just don't bother.

My Need for Funding my Medical Necessities

I have a very complicated medical case because I am a dialysis patient and it in itself is a big problem for me to handle already if not for my government insurance but it doesn't mean that I have no more expense to worry about because there are many things that I have to pay like doctor's professional fees whether she sees me or not I will pay. Lab fees and dialyzer fees as well are draining my pockets too.

Then I have to worry about this rare medical condition that I have to hopefully control or I will lose my eyesight if I won't take action. I am in an emergency situation and I am in a panic, I also fear about what will happen next as the decision of the second endocrinologist would mean that I will have to seal my fate and accept that I will lose this battle that I kept standing up on just to make myself survive it's havoc.

I have to get a parathyroidectomy to control my Leontiasis and if it would not get done then I am done for good and I don't think steemian friends would bother taking me out from my home and dropping me off a hospital where I could get a second opinion and finally get things moving again because everybody can only do much but I hope that I am wrong in that regard.

I don't have any idea how much the surgery would cost but I won't maybe considering a facial reconstruction unless the community really stands behind me but what I want really is for me to never get any back pain again and eat normally again. I am fine of being ugly, I just want my basic human function back without pain and discomfort.