Exceptional post my fellow peer. This area of discussion is one of my main motivations for joining up on a social platform such as Steemit, as I believe it will be more well received as it's still in its early stages, striving towards a decentralized idea, and hasn't had enough time to be affected by the domestication of societies. I always try and discover the source of things or at least keep rooting it as far as I can until the day I leave this biological vessel. So far, I think fear is the closest source of control, especially in society today, based off my observation, research, and analysis. I really would love for more people to be aware of this also, but it's a tough system to break due to the numerous layers and confusion. At what point did you become self aware of this?
For me, I've always had this feeling, maybe a type of curiosity or questioning of everything, since a very young age. It's hard to put into words, as language is a form of communication and also is in the constraints of control, as it is limited and can spread like a virus. The real trigger for me becoming more aware of the power of control was the death of my mother in my early adulthood years. It was my greatest fear, and something I didn't know how to deal with...so I completely disconnected. I went through a transformation of dehumanizing myself, because I had lost the most powerful and important connection to me in my life. Life essentially halted, as time kept on flowing with or with out me :).
I went through dark periods of self-manipulation with my main objective being to splice my own conscience open, remove all emotions and thoughts, and try to recreate my own world purely with my mind through various methods. I was in deep thought for years, and delved deep down the rabbit wanting to find source so I could do a fresh install to put it metaphorically. I looked a lot at the government, media, religion, extraterrestrial life, physics, sacred geometry, and just information itself. It's amazing how a piece of data can be interpreted and translated an infinite amount of times with its product being nothing close in resemblance to its origin. It's amazing what manipulation can conjure and transform, and trying to delve through the layers of confusion it exponentially sprouts.
I really could go on forever about this, and all the revers-engineering of all the human constructs, but wanted to get in a reply to your awesome post. I want to be completely free too my friend, and I will strive towards unlocking it until the end. Oh the day to wake up and just pick some berries off a bush and lay under the sun eating them relaxing, everyday! Not that it's not possible to do now, but fear still has a firm grip.
Some of my major inspirations that have helped shape my perception are Pink Floyd, The Doors, The Beatles, Led Zeppelin, George Carlin, Tesla, Poe, and Nassim Haramein to name a few :). Thank you for the inspiration to reply to your post, and motivation to keep moving forward. Looking forward to what's to come, and feels good to be more connected.

Respectfully Yours,

BillowSoul