You are in charge of everything that happens to you

Have you ever wondered "Why me?" "Why does nothing ever work out for me?" "Why am I broke, sad,depressed and a mess?"

The answer is...You are the cause of everything in your life. Every experience and every reaction to that experience has built in you a vibration and energy. We each have our own energy and vibration and we create this exactly the way we want to. We cause the vibration and the energy and we attract all of these experiences to us. Sometimes we separate ourselves from our life but we are all a reflection of ourselves. A perfect reflection of us.

I found this hard to digest at first. I took the victim roll. I felt betrayed that it was so easy to fix my negativity but I could never get the help I needed. I had to see if it would work. I needed to begin work now and fast! I began to let go of all of my crappy, useless beliefs that did not serve me. I accepted that saying goodbye to some stuff was going to hurt and be difficult. In the end, after not allowing the negatives in and not feeding them and nurturing the horrible stuff that I would say inside my head, I started to feel power. Intense power. Almost super hero power. I AM COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE!

I think now that I have experienced this deep awakening to my own control of my mind, I can help you with the answer and it REALLY is easy. All you need to do is DO something about it. In that moment when a negative jumps into your brain just don't react. Let it go. It came, it wasn't reacted to and it left. If it comes back, practice not reacting. It is not hard to do. I am doing it and that meant letting go of the old habits..the old "poor baby" bullshit. I needed to save myself!

I have never felt so much gratitude towards myself as I do right now. I am thankful that my negative brain didn't kill me or keep me imprisoned in depression and I was able to listen and recognize each negative thought.
I mean, I was one of the nastiest people on the planet for a very long time. I can say that negatives almost killed me! I have had so many tumors and cancer. I spent 7 or 8 grueling years "being" sick. What I didn't realize was that I was making me sick. I was the reason I had tumors. I was the cause of all of the breakdown in my beautiful body. I chose the diet and lifestyle that I chose. I kept feeding the negatives in my life instead of not reacting to them and just letting them pass. We all have to deal with stuff sometimes and it can be so cruel when you get sick or lose someone to a nasty disease. We don't think about all the steps that we took to get to that point.

You know, I used to sit and wait to win the lottery, I would cross my fingers to get a good hand in poker, or I longed to win on the slots. These are just "lucky" events..or in most people's cases....unlucky. The minute you realize that you are in complete control of your self and the direction your life is heading, you will start to think differently about things like money and success and what those things mean. Everything starts to fit together as you think it and create action on it.

Money comes easily for me now so I no longer desire to win the lottery or scratch a winning ticket. I move into action and start thinking about wealth and success..this vibration and energy keeps putting me into the right direction. Moving with nature and the universe.

I truly believe that our thoughts are the most powerful tools we have and we don't exactly use those thoughts to our advantage sometimes. I mean, if we recorded all of the nasty stuff that goes on in our minds on a regular basis, we would be astounded by the negative self talk and doubt that we put on ourselves.

When I see people out there in wheelchairs and maybe living with a disability or disease, I notice how they react to their situation and that just gives me a feeling of joy to see how much people can accomplish when they stop reacting to negatives. We all have bad days and we all struggle but in the end, we control our minds. They are miraculous...

I have seen such astounding results in myself because as soon as I stopped reacting to the negatives in my life, they lost their power. I now control every thought that goes in and out. I control my reaction. I control my facial expressions and watch my words. I have turned 40 years of self induced sadness, depression, suicide and sickness into a whole, loving and in control self. I am heart-centered and I am open to all information. I do not react the same way that I used to. I let stuff in and I quickly decipher if it is necessary to react. It has changed my life exponentially and it has allowed everyone that I meet to feel love and compassion from me. It feels really great to wake up each day and know that I am in control of my destiny and I will continue to take action on the great things and let the shitty stuff go...I don't need it.

So, it is with an open heart and loving kindness that I wish each of you a wonderful day and hope you can let the negatives just slide off. Namaste