Today something broke, today it is finished damaging. You noticed when you saw the last days a trace of a person who does not want to be or at least not for the moment.
Why did it have to be like this? Do you deserve this?
Maybe it was the karma of a few years ago, or a few days ago, or maybe you think you're meant to be there. He must be tired of saying that everything is fine and then throwing a fake smile.
Why are not your friends there?
Why is not your family?
Why is not there someone to support you?
Today you are alone, but it's fine
As a premonition, you know that this is a fight with yourself, a punch with your pain.
It's probably the Expectations fault, damn it, always playing dirty.
But today everything will change, today you will take the last drop of pain, and you will remember with nostalgia the thought that this could not be worse, and no, it will not make you stronger, it will make you more conscious, and after that, you will be able to savor the taste of to be alive.
You are alone but it's okay.