Sunken Yet Rising

Searching for the steps I haven’t taken
Can’t help but think how I’ve been mistaken
As much as I want to start life anew
My subconscious knows all that I’ve been through

But then I can see it’s not really bad
Compared to the lives some people have had
Some people were framed some killed with no name
Some people think Risk is not just a game

I smell burning garbage when it’s not there
It’s caveat emptor buyer beware
I cannot escape the wrath of your glare
I’m learning slowly how not to despair

Drinking because I was trying to quit
Reversing the concept of The Secret
What is on your mind can have an effect
I’m murdering every ounce of respect

Respect that was given I should not take
As it turns out all that respect was fake
You built me up to break me down again
I will pull the trigger please just say when

I will shove the barrel into the ground
Barrel obstruction kills the muffled sound
Verbal diarrhea shall still resound
Whether you’re using the dollar or pound

I could never explain myself clearly
So sick of people that claim they hear me
All of their interpretations are wrong
So maybe I’ll turn this into a song

Jack of all trades is a master of none
At one time I thought the battle was won
Now I sit here and sink in this abyss
Thinking of the people that I do miss

Why do I keep drinking down this poison?
It hasn’t killed me I get my joys in
See I know that booze is indeed a drug
Maybe I’m just the one that needs a hug

I started writing this to feel fulfilled
Now you know my secret I should be killed
Why do I play this mind game with myself?
And leave all my gifts sitting on the shelf?

Beat myself up more than you could ever
I could never decide the endeavor
I had so much brightness now it is blight
Please leave me alone this is not your fight

Only you can decide your own mission
Don’t live your whole life in your own prison
Take action because your life is right now
With enlightenment you have been endowed