Me

_{because I feel like kicking arse}

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My fight
I awake to uncertainties
Insecurities threatening me
Desires mocking me
They believe it's me
My old self who cower
And tremble at their feet
I let them smirk and toast
I watched them drink and merry
Knowing it will be their last

My rebellion
I come home with weak legs
My arms are broken
My muscles are sore
For a moment I let them win
Their snigger got to me
Until I remembered my promise
I stood tall with determination
I crushed and ruined
I destroyed them inch by inch

My strength
I hear a voice calling me
Nudging me awake
It tells me to open my eyes
And face my demons
It pushes me over my deepest fears
I'm born anew
Like a sinner who finds salvation
Like a warrior after his first battle

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Weird fact: I was half asleep and dreaming with this in my head. I was writing it and my Mama was asking if I had eaten (all in the dream). I woke and forgot everything I wrote, save for the beginning, and that was much better.

How are you this new year?

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