My story and Journey of 40 days in Isolation while in Prison

In 2015 I spent exactly 40 days in what is known as the "hole" by the inmates or the SHU (Special Housing Unit) by the prison. Its where you are put when you get in trouble inside prison, and is complete isolation from the rest of the prison. 24 hours in isolation, food fed through a tray in the door, and 2 books given per week...

I went into this situation bound in drug addiction, and suicidal, but came out a forever changed man....During this 40 days I met the Love and Grace of God as I searched for freedom from my bondage, and I began to write everyday and cry out to God.

So I will share some of my poems, prayers, and writings that brought me through the despair and brokenness...Today I want to share with you a poem I wrote on October 2nd 2015 17 days into my 40 day journey.....

FREEDOM

The silence is deafening,
My thoughts circling- the faces of my 2 boys I keep imaging.
The hope of laughter, the tenderness of a hug, my heart aches to be the man they need.
My mind tries to torment me with all the perceived failures and guilt.
The keys jingle from the guard that walks past my cell.
The chill of the cell, the bareness of the walls.
The souls of the men echoing in the darkness, the chants of the Muslims.
The hunger inside the body waits for the next meal.
Its all so overwhelming, the hole, isolation.
Thoughts of escape not physically but mentally...
Then the realization, the awareness, its ok. It's ok! Tomorrow is a new day. The Truth is I am loved, blessed, I will survive.
The fears, the darkness, the sounds, the hunger, the loneliness is silenced, by the Grace, Love, and Peace of God...I have hope, I can still dream, there is Freedom within no matter what holds me. No matter what door, what key, or what guard, I am finding my Freedom through Grace and Love....
I am free again, my spirit is alive, I am overwhelmed with a new found Hope...I Am and I will......

Thank you God for freedom in darkness!

Much Love and Blessings🙏😇💓

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