I wanted to eat the smoke off your back
while the world ends
You could name every single animal by heart
Deep wounds carved like neon yellow highways in your perceptions
I could see it all in the Sunday newspaper
The ways we might have saved each other
Exactly like how he claimed he could
Jawbreaker truths so big you couldn't fit your throat around them
We still tried anyway
No amount of effort would deter us
Physics were just as malleable as they are now
But then, we noticed it more
I would give anything to be pinned to your floor
Staring at not a goddamn thing
Or at least to know why you left
I talk to you regularly
and you won't tell me
There are still no years here
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever feel like I'm home
The gaping maw of a lie everyone tells me
Is to believe what they see is real
I promised you once
It's teeth will break on my bones