Poem / Last Night

in poetry •  7 years ago 

Last night

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To be honest at this very moment
I have no idea how to make a poem
It feels like it's just left me
The feelings I can no longer see

I'm still writing because I love it
I finished an anime last night
That made my mental state plummet
It shattered me and made me realize

I'm all alone
It's was 2 am in the morning
Where a normal guy would out be partying or sleeping
While I was in front of the monitor binging.

It was a disturbance to my soul
That gave me a shocking wake up call
All I do nowadays is wake up, eat
Then off to the computer screen.

I've become so comfortable being a shut in
But I'm missing what I could rather be doing
I've lost my appetite for social interaction
But last night was like a allergic reaction

My throat closed up
It felt like I couldn't breath
My eyes were burning
I could barely see

An overwhelming feeling grows within
That I'm done with this I need to try again
I should actively seek what my heart desires
Even if it leaves me bruised, broken and uninspired

I can't stay the way I am forever
It's not right
The change I need to make
I realized last night...

By Ethan
2017/07/03

I feel as tho after last night my brain's been under constant siege
My hearts been slapping the crap out of every thought I've had and it sucks.

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Nice poem.
Thanks for sharing.

Awesome as always.upvoted 😊

Smugvoted, ~desu~
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arigato Smug-chan

Love your poem... Keep on breaking night writing ;-)

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Indeed XD

I follow you

Cool poem!

Great post

It's really a master piece of poetry coming right from someone who has suffered a lot. I think poetry has a unique vibe which attracts others to it. I am into poetry for sometime. I have read and write many of good poems. But this one is really good.
Good luck for the future.

Thank you :)

I love it 😍 👍🏻

it seems someone broke your heart . Or maybe im wrong.

multiple times

which is change do you need to make..

I need to actively engaged in looking for my partner, I need to get out more often... and so on.

hmm steemaddiction? if so that can happen to the best of us... I have seen some members mention how much time they spend here. I can relate. Hope that is not the case. Thanks for the reply & keep up the good work -cheers

It's not an addiction, I
just don't have anything to do so I spend my day gaming and steeming

Without knowing how to write a poem, still writing a beautiful one. Probably that's the reason real talented people never accepts their actual talent and seeks for more learning. Good job buddy!!!

Thank you :)

Nice poem. I feel the same! I'm always home and don't wanna go anywhere but sometimes I feel like I should go out and do something.

Yeah it sucks...

You got what it takes! Following! By the way, I would highly appreciate if you can take time to visit my Introduction Looking forward meeting new friends :) I wanna know you thoughts :)

Will do :)

Nice poem very deep
i translate it to frensh langage :)
thanks for sharing
i follow you

Thank you :) that makes me glad :)

Thay's a sad poem :( I hope you'll cheer up soon

Thank you :)

Excellent work, keep it up.

yes

Ethan, even though you are at a point of writer's block, just know that you need the time to adjust. Eventually when you are ready, you will find that inspiration. At least you are making a great attempt to still write. That makes me happy! Look at me, I had writers block for almost a month but thanks to you, I got the inspiration to write again. I will be starting two new series, one on A Path to Becoming and another one Remembering the Old Times. I picked these subjects because it made me happy and inspired good memories. You wanted me to give you a link. Here it is: https://steemit.com/life/@cabbagepatch/a-path-to-being-1-the-journey-has-re-begun . Since this is just my second post, I don't really have a following but I'm appreciative to have a venue to write from my heart. Have a wonderful day and take that first step to socialize again when you are ready. Your internal essence will let you know!.......Cabbagepatch

Thank you, I'm prepared to socialize again but I need a new angle. I lok forward to your posts :)

very good post...I like it :)

Yeah, Sakura will slap some sense into you! I know what ya mean though, am a loner myself and a lot at home. Am content with my situation but have those moments like you just described where I feel like I need to get out..

Yeah... the loneliness catches up eventually

Lol! But you've finished a poem.

yeah :)

Muy buen poema, y mas si se trata de anime :D

Sorry I don't understand ?

I had anime as a subtag because anime inspired it anime created what happened and anime brought me to my senses

I liked the way you started this poem. And you said I do not know how to make a poem but you did a great job.

Thank you :)

Great work Ethan. Love finding new poets to follow.

Thank you :)

This will always happen from time to time with other example in life as well. I suggest a change of scenery. Even if just the walk around some blocks or whatever. Just to get the blood going and you also never know what other inspiration might pop out.. good thinking writing it to get it out.

Thank you, I am purchasing a motorcycle soon so then I can find new scenery more easily

It can be hard to bare your soul on paper, harder still to show it to the world. I commend your bravery. I've put a couple of my own poems about inspiration up over the last couple of days, just my feelings about that part of the writing process. It's a very personal thing.

Yeah, and when you feel very lackluster and uninspired it can be hard to create a poem

Amazing, You are good @xxsenpaixsamaxx

Thank you :)

This is some work, I love your ideas

I should actively seek what my heart desires
Even if it leaves me bruised, broken and uninspired

I loved this part. It's so brave! I have upvoted and followed you for more poems on my feed :)

Thank you ☺ I appreciate it :)

Nice one senpai! I feel the same... I love anime and poems myself... btw, love the gifs you used.. Toradora and Naruto... ^^

Toradora was soooooooooooo goood :)

I agree.... pefect tsundere couple! hahahah