DARKNESS IN SOUL

In the light of the world
I just see myself so dark
lusterless
and no color

because its so dark
the sun and the moon were unable to illuminate it
no rainbow looks
there is only a pseudo shadow

At every junction of light I always look for
looking for its bright light
light that can make themselves colorful
light that can make itself come alive

but, I feel my soul is gone
my soul has drowned
my heart feels empty
and I do not understand, how can it be like this

I do not know how long
the darkness of the soul that struck me
anxiety that strikes me
and the fear that does not want to go

I do not know what to do with myself
that I know, I can not feel anything anymore
can not see the real beauty
and can not make light stay in my soul