For the past couple of hours, been trying to sleep. Tried lying in bed and watching a movie, several in fact, and nothing worked, nothing put me to sleep, which generally does work. I just have this huge feeling, not necessarily from a place of fear or dread, but that something really big is heading our way, something that none of us are at all prepared for.
Of course, that is life and no one is prepared for that dreaded moment when their car collides with another and some don't survive. No one is ready for the earthquake that destroys their home or the hurricane that wipes out their town or the wild fire that tears through and destroys a community.
No, what I am seeing, feeling, intuiting, is something coming that will affect us all and all the writing is on the wall. Not everyone can read that writing. Wish I couldn't. But it is coming, and it is coming soon.
Nothing is really right with the world right now. There are psychopaths in power hell bent upon destroying community and culture, perpetuating divisiveness amongst us, creating more false reasons for wars, with an ultimate goal to control all of us, at least those of us left to be enslaved. Some of you know this, but unfortunately, too many do not, and it would take hours or links to research, which most won't read, to even begin to explain the actual reality of my dreads. This is just a lull before the big storm.
What I am missing most at this very moment is not having a bunch of friends to party with now! I used to have friends that understood exactly what I am eluding to, but somehow they, too, got all caught up in the matrix of lies, and decided that I am just some kind of paranoid nutcase.
But, I remember some really fun parties with many of them over the years, and somehow perhaps fear made them forego me, and to forget how to play and party?
So, guess I'll just party by myself until I finally feel tired enough to sleep again. Oh, and no tears for me, I've been partying by myself for years! Glad I finally learned to mostly like myself.