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one positive thing I can note is that you realize that you are suffering this is an experience. This is because your attention is on the outer world and if you try to find some answers, start looking inside you more, what really makes you feel that way. Or take some advice from advanced teachers. listen to this

Brother, you are changing to become a better you. This might help give you some information and guidance as to why the distractions are not your fault: https://steemit.com/@beunconstrained

You can do it Phil.

Good luck going out there and meeting real people.

I understand why you have to cut back all the distractions to force yourself to get on with it.

Listen, don't bear it in mind the whole time that you have some shaking hands. My dad suffered from something similar his whole life. When he was little he could barely hold a pen and his handwriting has and is alway going to be shit.

However, he learned that he enjoyed carving and creating statues with stone. One of many hobbies anyway.

As you grow older I think you care less about the little hangups. The other people you speak to will have their own minor flaws. That's just human.

Good luck out there bro.

Hey bub, way t' be on recognizing dysfunction and actually doing something about it. That's a win right there, as you're in the extreme minority regarding that.

Stay aware of the residual influences of the demonic cultural paradigm you were raised within. Recognize spots where your self-worth is being tarnished by the equating of material "value" with personal value, or where social popularity (be it with friends or sexual partners) provides and invalid benchmark for life success.

True success lies in discovering Truth, escaping the illusion, and expressing your authentic self. This often differs greatly from the self we see through the cultural lens, even if only a little bit of that lens remains.

Remember that thoughts and emotions are just another experience of the true self - no different than seeing a tree or hearing a song. They are not you. Emotions just indicate where your thoughts are at, and can be brought into a better place by shifting your attention to better-feeling thoughts that you know to be rooted in Truth (pretty lies won't work).

Just a reminder, as I'm sure you're aware of these things. You needn't do anything, accomplish anything, become anything to increase your worth. You're as worthy as you'll ever be - as worthy as anyone can ever be - right now. Enjoy the journey, there is no destination.

Life is struggle. There will be no moment where you have achieved "all": the only peace you will find is within. You make your own world. I wish you all the strength to achieve what you want.

When I first got to Steemit I used it for similar reasons. It was basically just my mental health journal and if people wanted to read it, that was cool, if not fuck it. Personally I think this is an awesome idea and it's a good way to hold ourselves sort of publicly accountable in a way. I feel like it helped me work through a lot of issues that aren't that different from the ones you are working through and I wish you nothing but success. Much love.

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You are a clasic case of energy vampire.
your life is great, can't you see ?
Start apreciate what you have, live in the moment and stop complaining about the past.

Sometime or things are hard for everyone yet some live and some don't. Hope you will find out why.
good day bye.