Behind my smile i wonder why white people attack and black people defend « im not racist »

Racism exist in our life it’s like love fear shame,something we live with we see it everyday. you know in world of racism there's 3 categories of people: the racist, victim of racism, and spectators and in this category there's 2 type of them the ones who react to racism and the ones who doesn't care because it dont touch them .
Back to our history that i feel shame of it , black people suffer from racism they were treated in savage way , a word of SLAVE can describe everything and they defend them self,nowadays white people still attack black people and being racist meanwhile black people still defend them self, isn't suppose that black people attack for what they suffer over the years and white people defend, try to find excuses and make peace ?!
I write this because i saw video "Im not racist" and i'm sure most of you watched too, and take my attention the title before i even watch the video because it’s funny how lot of people say i'm not racist but … and then they say some racist things, let me tell you something, my dad teach me that everything come after word BUTis a bulls*it -excuse my language - like : i love you and i want to be with you BUT we cant be together because … ! it's not true you don't want to be with me, or I like your CV and your back ground and i'm sure you can help our company in many things but unfortunately … ! its not true you don't think that im valuable, if you do you will accept me, i'm not racist but …it’s not true you're racist !
When i watched the video i had lot of different mixed feelings, millions of ideas fighting in my brain and with every second feelings change ideas change, when i finish it , i had to see it again to understand it properly . And besides the great message that it share, i had that feelings like the white man attacked and black man defend himself again, it's like destiny of life, and i was wondering why the black man did not attack harder He absolutely can! so i put myself in position of the man that made this video trying to see as he saw it and understand his vision, and my conclusion was that he know that video should finish with a hug and love, and for that, one should attack and other one defend, explain , show his story, other way if black man attack harder what will be purpose of video ? divided people ? make situation worse ? so i understand it . its just i don't agree for people defending their self against racism, they should stand up and finish it forever ! I mean in this world not only black people there’s muslims too. i’m muslim but it’s really matter when you will comment on this article ? or come to speak with me ? because you know muslims always defend their religion trying to explain what they believe and say its religion of love and peace not death. every time some dirty person make a terrorist attack and kill innocent peoples, i see my friends, family my peoples start to defend islam and share publication in social media I DONT and you know why ? for a simple reason because islam is to big to great for a person like me to define it, ISLAM is religion of god he defend himself, ! if you know 10% of islam you will not say anything bad about it , and for a funny fact that there’s more than a billion of muslims living around the world, if we really believe in killing then everyone will be dead ! sorry to say that "not sorry honestly "
I'm a human like you it doesn't matter where i come from or what my religion or my name, if i'm rich or poor black or white , straight or gay, male or female it doesn't matter honestly, look in my eyes and speak with my words and i do the same i use your words, that’s only solution to make an end to difference between me and you, and when there’s no difference theres no racism, we all equals we all same.
we will have different ideas , and i'm sure lot of you will not agree about some points on my articles, and let me tell you that’s the beauty of it, it make us talk , discuss , share ideas , and accept different opinions, i can't wait to see what you really believe and what your opinion, maybe you will open my eyes to something i didn't see before !
And before i finish i don't mean to be impolite or rude to someone, i want to speak and share my thoughts with this community . all love