I Was In An Emotionally Abusive Relationship

I just got out of a toxic emotionally abusive relationship, he says he screamed because i didn't listen or try to fix things between us. But i never really felt i could trust him, i loved him but i never met his family. He has a traditional Muslim family. We talked about marriage and children, we really love kids. Every time i talk with him he says his miserable and is moving because everything reminds him of me. He has anger issues and depression, i have depression and anxiety issues. I miss him but i don't miss the screaming. For a long time i have been really depressed part of me thinks it was because of our relationship. Last time i saw him we fought and he slapped me, something that i thought he would never do. After that he talked twice once because of a bill issue and other because I called him! Even he was surprised. This is hard for me. We had good times and he is so beautiful. But so angry, and can't control himself. I miss him. I am so stupid.