Congress is preparing to release to the public a memo - a document prepared by the House Intelligence Committee which is said to contain a report that will rock our country to its very core. Our country has been rocked so much lately, that's almost unimaginable. Is it this latest drop from QANON? Here's where I want to start my story - just to give an idea of where I'm coming from.
On the evening of November 5, 2008, I was curled up on the floor, gasping for breath, unable to stand, due to the weight of what I was intuiting. I had never experienced anything like it before. Little did I know I would learn to live with it for the next many years.
I had been attuned to Reiki since 2000 and had advanced to Reiki Master earlier that year. Because of that, my intuitive awareness had become heightened. It’s like the advances in history when black and white silent films suddenly became spoken and in color. Like the awareness Jonas became privy to after exposure beyond his dystopian world in Lois Lowry’s The Giver, one of my favorite novels. Up until that evening in 2008, everything I had received through heightened awareness had been beautiful. I had always had faith in God as an abstract concept, but after attunement I could feel it. Faith became secondary to experience. A new reality. One that was more vivid, more loving, more compassionate than ever before. The experience of empathy. I used to tell people I was a political Taoist - I strived to see through all viewpoints and to be a bridge of peace between differences. I thought that was my life mission. That morning of November 5, I was as excited as anyone to have the first African American President, not because I liked nor voted for the candidate, but because I was so happy to see the excitement and sense of hope that day that I was seeing in my African American friends. I hoped our country was entering an era of increased peace, compassion, and unity. For that endeavor, I was willing to put my reservations aside.
But by that evening on November 5, the energy had changed. I do believe the problems didn’t just begin that day. They may have been in process for a long time. I just believe that in that moment, some part in the plan was birthed. Or maybe it’s just the moment when it was delivered to me. Now, knowing what I know, I’m not sure that had the other candidate won things would have been different. Nor am I sure that things were truly different before this election. I just know that my awareness became enhanced. And something was set in motion. None of us intuit every problem in the world. None of us have every piece to the puzzle. That’s the beauty in it, because we’re all gifted with different passions and sent out to where each of us is needed. Even though it would be years before I uncovered where the genocide was taking place, I learned to live with knowing there was genocide. From that night forward, as a Reiki Master, receptive to the energy fields, death, and later genocide, instead of ethereal love, was running though my veins.
I don’t know if this attachment is the contents of the memo. It’s an email hack this week dropped by QANON. But I do know that there’s nothing in this release that hasn’t already terrified me a thousand times - not because I understood it all at once, but because over the years, the pieces continued to unfold. I don’t know how many other people also read this with familiarity. If this is the memo, I don’t know that the story began November 5, 2008. My instinct tells me it didn’t. But for whatever reason, that was the moment when I was initiated into the story. In less direct ways, I had been a part of the story for a long time. There were pieces I already had. I just hadn't embraced them yet.
There’s a sense of relief at the idea that maybe all of this will come to light. It would be so nice for so many of us to no longer be the citizens trying to say it. Then there’s also the disappointment that Congress is suddenly so appalled - as if so many citizens hadn’t typed for hours trying to tell them. Then the further disappointment that so many people won’t accept it no matter what the outcome is. And finally the concern that cornering such a scheme could bring more divisiveness, aggression, and destruction.
Being an intuitive is like living the experience of heaven and hell all wrapped into one. And sometimes the two seem interconnected. Having a sense of knowing has been excruciating. And yet, I wouldn’t trade it. I’d rather know - and be a part of the change makers. Whatever small puzzle piece I was meant to fill, I’d rather know I did my best to fill it. And I’d never trade the miracles that have helped me along the way. I’ve now crossed paths with many more intuitives who have had similar experiences to what I’ve had - each with their own different pieces of the puzzle. Maybe soon the entire puzzle will come together.
Jesus stated, “You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.”
Brace yourselves. There's a lot in here:
