Dear @Dayleeo — 12th of October — doctors, reset, meditation, we step through.

Good morning dear.

Be prepared for $5,139 BITCOIN. WHAT. WOW, first saw this morning on twitter just and was like. wow. ok then, that’s where we at. . ;)

It’s 10:13, I’ve just been sat outside the van, thankful, meditating for ten minutes, I’ll ramp it up slowly, tomorrow another 10 and saturday 15 minutes until I get to thirty by the end of next week. i don’t know why but walking through the undergrowth from the road side into the site I just saw this perfect dewy morning and wanted to be outside in it — I got out the chair, set the alarm and sat, a nice calming reset after the doctors.

Told him all my ailments and he has put together a prescription for me, I totally gapped to tell you, and only really remembered when I saw like a sore on my head that last saturday stressed out and leaving the van I banged my head hard on the door frame, maybe the sunday morning thing was a delayed concussion. I remember at the time I just had a tablet to cover the headache that was coming, maybe it was a delayed reaction to that, either way, the doctor had a look at me, took my blood pressure which he was happy with and put me a prescription for some hydro again but this time with a fungal agent in there as well.

I could have maybe gone in more description about the brain pause but now when we stack all the things together anxiety, stress and banging my head that makes a lot more sense to me and him, I’m still a little bit on edge and got that delayed feeling still but maybe I’ve just still got a mild concussion so what I’ve been doing with resting up is doing me some good, just gotta keep stepping through, water, relaxing, not stressful situations and take that time out, gonna enjoy getting back into meditation again that’s for sure.

I know you have been pushing the hours and the days are ticking down and it feels like all people to the pumps but I think you got a lot of this locked down, i hope you get time to do your shot list of stuff that would be awesome, especially if I try and do the same, right now I’ve gotta work out some coins and times for buses and such like but I think I’m good to go, just gotta pick up tickets from the machine and such like, again, just stepping through like before, day by day, week by week. Tick the things off the lists, have paper lists, notes, but them on bags and stuff.

No I understand the obligations kind of things, I get you, that’s a set of tasks you have to go through to be in prime position to have everything mentally locked down in your mind while your out of the country, I totally get that, makes total sense that you have to step through like that so give yourself a bit of a break eh? These things feel overwhelming but they are just a series of moments on certain days, your making memories, remember that, lots of photos or selfies together with the ones you love baba ;)

Yeah it’s been a good and bad year in some respects, super fast start for you and super slow and dark for me at times, in recent months it’s been better, more of a positive mental attitude but I also think I needed to go through that to see where I should be and what I should be doing when I get there — of course we can never know, it can all spin on a dime and point the other way but we gotta at least be prepared as best we can with the things we have.

I’ve been waiting for the opportunity with the right client and the right projects to get stuck in, feel like the top rated thing was the validator I needed, now it’s the push to the 100 and then the 1000 hours — I’m already getting more interviews, some sound cool but are too big but I’m thankful that I’m receiving those messages. I really like the platform even if they do take a big cut, they find the client and connect us together, this 10% life will be even better I expect over time, like I’ve said before a rolling client list of 5/10 clients is more than enough for me — if I wanna go in and do 5 x 2 hrs and crush a 10 hour day I know that even though I’ve not maybe done what I want with my life that day that I have funds coming in to cover the days that I do, it’s all about that balance right?

STILTON SEASON. From this day forward December will be known as stilton season for sure. It’s certainly a time for digging through the different cheeses at croots and a polished breakfast over that way at some point once the car is all running tickery boo — maybe before the new year that can be sorted out, Matlock baths is also pretty nice around the December and January period because nobody is about, we have so much exploring to do around there, you are NOT ready for what you will see out there I’m telling you, it’s literally incredible what views unfold and reveal, some stunning places to relax, debate, write blog posts and maker all da videos! :)

Ok, I’m gonna close this up here,
Make some breakfast, fancy a cup of tea this morning,
No coffee yet, not adding to that fuckery,
Gonna have a chill one until clients start coming online,
Still feel I need to give it some time before I start recording
Again, maybe end of next week I’ll restart all that.

Lots of Love,
Hugs and Stuff
Mr Mouser x