I know someone who is exactly the same-way; the first step is stepping out of the shadows, being more open about your addictions with the people you love the most. From personal experience with drugs and addiction and the amount your using it's more than likely that they already know. Your addict brain doesn't want to stop though and worries of the consequences. I have no idea of your living situation, but the more people that know your an addict the safer YOU are. Believe me; my friend can't type this or would have any joy in it if he weren't ripped. Without the substance he can't seem to fin