Let's jump ahead a few years from me being a virgin to me presently.
I had known *Dave for a few months from work. Over a few weeks we started to become closer - long chats, some dancing, and really good massages. I enjoyed getting to know him "platonically" and didn't expect it to go further, even though there was some sexual tension. Sexual tension is already that: energy connecting people! You can feel when both individuals are drawn to each other. One-sided attraction is desire, not connection!
We spent an afternoon at my place, giving each other massages. I thought I was pretty good at massaging people = having gotten many compliments from friends and strangers alike - until Dave's hands touched my skin. Was it him, or was it us? His every touch felt like it was from out of this world. He didn't stop at my back, he wandered down to my legs. In between my legs. I was still wearing my underwear. He applied pressure on points around my labias. I still thought this was merely part of an amazing advanced massage of some kind - acupressure, shiatsu, who knows - and wasn't gonna go any further. I closed my eyes and let the sensations take over. I was highly aroused, relaxed, and suddenly my head started spinning, as if I was on a roller coaster or tripping really hard. It felt confusing, and yet so amazing. If only this could never end... but nothing lasts forever. I mean, he's just a human being too, eventually his hands would get tired!
I sat back up on the floor. He was smiling and grinning, pleased with the enjoyment he had made me experience. As I was putting on my top he asked, with a cheeky smile on his face, whether I had ever heard of tantra. More or less, was my response. It wasn't actually sex, it was more like an energy exchange, he added. He said that I seemed like the kind of person who might want to try it - and I agreed, there's few things I wouldn't give a go.
I asked whether it was better for me to keep my top off, he smirked - it would probably help. He directed me to sit in his lap, my legs wrapped around his hips. I had to breathe in, taking energy from my genitals into my chest, and then exhale that energy into him. My face was nestled next to his face, my lips now and then touching his skin. He would inhale my energy and repeat the cycle. I never would've thought breathing could be so intense. Maybe it was just the attraction, the intimacy, or the unknown, but I could feel the sexual energy between us, connecting and arousing us.
We starting breathing into each other's mouths, our lips barely touching. We kissed, so unexpectedly and yet so naturally, and kept breathing. I don't know how much time passed until he asked whether I wanted to try the advanced stage of tantra. I nodded.
It was probably the most unforgettable and passionate sex I've ever had. It lasted hours and continued for a few days until I moved away. This introduction to tantric sex felt like an awakening, an eye opener to energies that we all possess, and that we can learn to use in different ways...
TBC
