Goodbye Steem

canna-curate (64) · 6 years ago

I wish I can tell you everything is all roses and rainbows, cause life is fucking hard man. I understand. ONe thing I can tell you, is I am here for you to talk anytime, so is canna. Wish i had money, i would send it to you. All i got to give you is myself. Whenever your ready, your always welcome. Take care man

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flemingfarm (68) · 6 years ago

I go through this exact same thing regularly. Depression is a motherfucker and is not the easiest to get out of. I agree that psychedelics could help you get a grasp on the rim of the pool and keep you from drowning. It is one of my go tos when I feel my cycle fall to the bottom of the parabola.

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solominer (72) · 6 years ago

Swoop sorry to hear your not feeling it anymore, I can see how those factors are stressing you out. But I hope with your new job maybe it's an opportunity to get out of a hole. And friends can always be made.. theres a ton of people on this planet.. always new people to make new relationships with when your ready.

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torico (63) · 6 years ago

swoop, I think I might speak for many by saying that many people love and care about you. personally i know what you are going thru. I've been there. take a break. i suggest you try to stop judging yourself so harshly, putting so much pressure on yourself and buying into the guilt. it gains you nothing.

we all make mistakes. even if we don't, it seems like the world is sometimes against us. focus on getting your stuff in order then try again. one of the best viewpoints i heard was that you might need to make a huge number of attempts before you succeed.

i've failed at relationships, jobs, hobbies - so what? should i go about hating myself? be depressed for the rest of my life? how counter productive is that? the important thing is to find the things that bring you joy and let that be enough. for me its taking photos, collecting dead flowers and finding ways to let people know i care, even if i get nothing back. would i like more? of course. but i am happy with what i have, and that is the key to being a success, in my mind.

hope this helps. take care and you are always welcome to come back when you want. hugs

torico (63) · 6 years ago

side note: just came across this. L Frank Baum, who wrote Wizard of Oz, "Baum failed as an actor, as a salesman, and in other careers—he moved his family in 1888 to Aberdeen, Dakota Territory, in what is now South Dakota. He opened a store (which failed) and a newspaper (which failed, too). "

He didnt have his first success until age 41. He was also racist against native americans. go figure.

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carrieallen (66) · 6 years ago

Swoooop!
Don't go!
I've been feeling this lately too. I know that doesn't help, but there it is.
I have no answers for you, other than keep living, keep trying, don't give up.

Deleting Facebook was probably a good thing. 😏
Imma send you a message in Discord, just in case you don't come back here... but I know you will, at least to cash out the Steem from this post to eat.

Many of us have been there.
It's hard when you have no one to reach out to. But here you DO.
Reach out. We may be all far away, but we can be close.

isaria (74) · 6 years ago

We still don't know where we are moving, but if Shane gets a job in El Paso I was looking forward to hanging out if we are close enough.
I don't really know what to say. I've been that depressed before and nothing anyone else said to me ever helped. I care about you though.❤️

greenhouseradio (64) · 6 years ago

YOU are NOT alone in feeling this way. I have these exact struggles my friend. I DO nt have an answer as to how to stop feeling this. I DO think it is like waves, they roll in silently and break violently. The plus side, after the break,,there is that moment of calm and clarity. I DO KNOW THIS...going deeper into THYSELF is often time a hard place to crawl back out of. I think a ton of people here would agree, we love you man and do not wish to see you go. I hope your wave breaks, and you find that clarity again. Never quit, never give up, even if it seems the easier thing to do.
~RESPECT~

cryptopie (81) · 6 years ago

Remember that there are people like me. Enough said.

tygertyger (65) · 6 years ago

talk to me on discord <3 also I am bipolar and while i generally do ok off meds if i get hit with deep depression i need them . It's chemical it not weakness the chemicals will just bring you levels back up please consider it ..i am really worried about this post ...talk to me on Discord ok <3

i know things look like shot right now but it will get better if you keep chipping away at it <3

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carlgnash (69) · 6 years ago

hey dude sorry to read this. I just went through bankruptcy process myself, it took a bit of extra work to file pro se but definitely saved me money - there really isn't any reason to pay a lawyer. Of course you have to pay the filing fee in any case but it sounds like if you are talking about a grand that you are planning to pay a lawyer - nothing is particularly complicated about filing yourself. You probably aren't looking for advice in this post but you can (and probably should if it is bothering you) tell your creditors in writing to stop contacting you and they are legally obliged to cease. Read more here: https://www.consumer.ftc.gov/blog/2016/01/how-stop-calls-debt-collectors

Anyhow, good luck dude. Sorry to hear shit is sucky for you and I hope it turns around.

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amberyooper (69) · 6 years ago

Hey man, don't forget that you make some really cool music! I know we could do some cool collaborations when you feel up to doing it.

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themarkymark (78) · 6 years ago

Find someone to talk to, do you have family?

Most people hit a point in life where they feel they are rock bottom, what you do from there will define the rest of your life.

Find something that brings you joy, anything.

Don't give up, there will be a day this will be a distant memory and will be behind you.

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eonwarped (68) · 6 years ago

I just wanted to say that I appreciate your love of fractals, chill music and wicked game, and dope graphics and memes, and your general swoopy presence. Beat the rut!

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bigtom13 (64) · 6 years ago

You know? Fuck it. Sometimes things just go to shit.

When it happens to me I know it's time to do what I need to do to take care of myself. Whatever that may be.

I've been bankrupt 4 times. To me, today, it means I gave life a really good run and didn't quite get there. I've learned something every time.

I'm not stupid enough to tell you what you should do. As you well know, I'm plenty stupid, but not quite there yet.

I am going to tell you that if you decide to stick your nose back in I'll probably be here. And will be glad to see you.

For me it's been a good run. I'm better off having known you.

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wholeself-in (57) · 6 years ago (edited)

If this is a thing that drains you of energy, then by all means turn that energy toward healing. As this is my only connection with you, and I know that you are worth something even to me, a person you have barely known but still shared art and fun things like inspirobot. And just like crypto, the value of you now is nothing compared to the value of you over time. HODL to life even when it sucks, especially when it sucks, and don't sell low.

Also, it doesn't fucking matter if you want to be on medication, when a very big change in your neurochemistry is what you need. People who are bleeding don't want stitches, they need them. People with infections don't want antibiotics, they need them. Why the hell would it be any different for your brain?

I say that so strongly because I know and love people who need medication sometimes and I know the mental games your brain will play since it is convinced it ought to be in control of itself. AND I am a big proponent of working on your whole self like you've been doing with martial arts and exercise. So I've had to learn the hard way that you can't always do it yourself and that mind over matter is not a real thing. It's mind IN matter. I can tell you know this, but I think sometimes your mind argues otherwise.

Speaking of doing things the hard way, I've been there and done that with bankruptcy. It's hard, and much better when it's behind you. As far as coming up with that 1K, that's what I did but I am pretty sure there are options for starting the process without that: like taking it out of the settlement (whatever assets you surrender) or out of your wages until it's paid.

Please take care, even when you don't want to

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crimsonclad (66) · 6 years ago

There's nothing that says you have to be here while you do the things you need to do; listen to your gut and take that time to do the things you need to. We'll be here when you're done.

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sunravelme (62) · 6 years ago

Sending you some loveswaves

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steemflow (72) · 6 years ago

Life can't be hell...just the situation makes it bit worst. I do not think no one have a perfect life...everyone have their it's or bits...but at all hard time the community does play a good role. Look at the brighter side...atleast you are getting good rewards on your post...unlike me..and my situation is not better than yours..still I keep holding on.....better to stick and play around and look for alternatives....

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greencross (68) · 6 years ago

Sorry to hear that. I am going through the same phase, but for years already. Too many years I'd say. I hope you can get over this.

take care

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sn0n (60) · 6 years ago

Fuck all the noise. Disconnect, do some shrooms, find yourself. Come back woke af!!! Legit tho, shrooms are fantastic for depression. microdosing daily or an epic trip when feeling the need... or just start smoking better weed, sometimes that does the job good enough for the speed bump you don't have the mental or physical gas for... ^>^ inflammation is a thing, how's the diet mate?
Also, I have no idea who you are or what you are about, I'm just a fellow who knows depression and suffering well and giving you my feedback as a caring human. Humans suck, it's part of the process, they grow though, and change... You will also. You got this friend. I love you. ^>^ * brohug *
The disconnect doesn't mean delete, it just means turn off the phone for a period.

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onemedia (60) · 6 years ago

You are a big part of our community, whether we've made it obvious to you or not. I myself will miss the cool chillout tunes you do that are so uniquely your own ...

Getting off FB probably was a good first step, just don't 'Toss out the baby with the bathwater' ... I imagine Disord/MSPWaves/Choon and Steem have been a fairly decent 'family' for you. Maybe a bit of time away will help clear your thoughts... The new day job ought to help with the finance difficulties, all things shall pass ...

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juliakponsford (70) · 6 years ago

You can't leave you're one of us 😞

If that's what you feel you need to do to sort yourself out I get it, but we'll miss you a lot 🤗😘

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road2nowhere (52) · 6 years ago

i know i'm late on the scene but was wondering where you were so i came and checked. sorry to hear that you are going through a rough patch, life can be a wicked game. you are one of my favorite people on here, i'm going to miss you. get your shit straight and come back better than ever!!! just remember whenever you hear a nickelback song, i'm there with you in spirt. :) much love brother!!!

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