Unusual Life (makes me look like a liar sometimes)

With My Band; WIRED CHILL founded aug.2014
That is The FunkRock, but not the unusual about, nor in, my life.

I (HD: manifesting generator) was born into traveling, and changing countries, moving quite far for a little child, changing schools a lot, and experienced already as I child how you land in different roles in different environments, and how some of them can be total opposites. In one place you are just one of the others, in another you are the nerd, some other place you are the leader of the pack, and elsewhere the cream, while in a certain location you were the victim scapegoat.

I'm also that wierdo who has had plenty of so-to-say mystic experiences, to know that there is so much more than meets the eye to everything. The cutest one was perhaps, when I innocently, non judging of self, wished to the skies "God" "Universe" or what it is beyond all this visible earthly (we are non religious in my fam.) ....so I wished for 20 dkr, at age 7 or 8 (and looking back, I had done all the steps (just naturally) right, according to the teachings of Abraham Hicks, and so many others who teach laws of attraction in all it's details. And I did get my 20 dkr, within less than 15-20min., with my first feeling thought being; Wow that was fast!?

But I do have some experiences of being high on life, exclusively because of environment and not meditation. At one point I even observed myself being like some sort of grand love itself .... buddha/jesus/maria, like one giant river of love and compassion, unable to be disturbed out of this state. ....except gradually, so I always had to return to the environment that made me feel that way, to maintain/recharge.
At that time, the top of the cake was that I was making no less than min. € 1000/week, occasionally per day even, while the basis of my cake was (finally after some ten years) having a base in a modern big country-house, in the nature of nothern ibiza, and the center of the cake was the freedom of traveling (booking all my own working weeks as a dancer, and deciding durations for myself).

Shortly after I stopped dancing my life got all fck upside down, with my nerves included, because of a car accident that ruined basically everything, going on and on, as if it was just the first domino brick in some year long avalance, set up to fall. And so far it's as if it has only gotten worse on my freedom and independence side (incl. that I still feel easily anxiety shaky).

As I am coming onto steemit and writing this text, I have just come out of my longest relationship, gone sadder and sadder "marriage" or so it feels, and have gotten even less outgoing independent and more discouraged and sad ....sort of broken of spirit.

But i am a dreamer apparently, as I am told. Because I still dream up ideas as always. That, incl. my humor, are the main things which keep me living.

I was born in Prag to succeeding musicians, raised partly there, and partly in Denmark with my grandMother, where I also went to boarding school and had years of being a horse lover, all up in the whole bubble of riding school and being a friend of my horses.

Eventually before I went Globetrotting as a dancer for over a decade, I went to an amazing music scholl, where you stay living there, having the keys to everything of the whole school 24/7. It was personally with myself for myself, an interesting and self educating-feeling experience, of things I ended up getting out of myself there, coming 50% from the things i practiced alone, my daily obsession being the grand piano, standing all alone in the huge milk-factory hall, a setting which I loved.

After that, it was the globetrotting that eventually lead me to the island of Ibiza, where i finally got to experience a home feeling of that kind, which people feel homesick to. Now I finally know what that feels like. ....to cry for a place you call home.
But after 6 years the car accident ruined my life so unbelievably, and since then I feel as if lont in no mans land about what I can and want to work with, thinking there is surely some thing I don't know of yet, which I will love to do and therefore be good at.

Let's see what happens as I await the moment, when I lay attention on the right something, which I will then in that same moment know, that I will be able to wake up to, and not be late for, and as well keep doing it longer than just a week or two, before I whither and evaporate from the job, due to stagnancy and meaningless boredom.
So I am very open to suggestions, inspirations, and even offers, etc. BECAUSE ONE THING I KNOW is that everything is possible. ....no matter how impossible it may seem.