The curse to be smart and live in eastern europe

hello guys at first time, sorry about my bad English i start learning it before few days so if you don't understand me okay i will try to be better in the time but for now that's all what i can do without helping tools like sites for translating, i wanna do my posts only by my self without "cheating" for words or other stuffs in internet because i think i can improve my speech like this i mean if you understand me you will be like it if you don't you will hate or skip this right ?! ... Actually i am person from one small country in Europe which country is one of oldest in world and for sure is very beautiful, one country which language is very hard and it was official one for all Europe before something like 1000 years or more probably doesn't matter now when the English is the most popular language in the globe... And lets start with my story guys, all begin before 26 years when i had born by one woman which name i still don't know, yep i'm a "bastard?!" i think that't the right word for guy who don't know his real parents, okay after 2 years of that some Man and Woman founds me and take me to theirs home and make it my home you know how happen and here start the problems guys you know after some times they see me how i try to walk but any time i push my self into the walls and doors and anything on my way and they bring me to the doctor which say them, this kid is almost blind he needs help out of our competency
and the doctor show them some offers for real white part of Europe, country like German, Denmark and others but because my parents was poor like a lot of people in eastern Europe in this time, they needs a help, and my father takes money from his boss but with strange contract which obliges my father to work till die for this company, bullshit right but anyway needs to be short after that i start school i learn very good German Italian French Spanish, my own language and i was pretty good in chemistry i learn it with students when i was still a kiddo anyway after years latter when i was at 12yearold. i had a close meeting with the death because of sickness which name i cant say at my own language so in English will be impossible. How you can see i'm still alive but this problem cost one year of my school and my life obviously but i still try to live like a normal teenage boy start meeting with girls starting with party's you know and one day i wake up after my 17th birthday party and i was pretty sick guys i know how to explain what happen on me in this day but you know the way to the hospital again and they found that i have a syndrome of klinefelter nobody can die because of it but after all what happen to me from my born till this day and for sure i don't give much details about my life just 2-3 of them you know i crashed in this moment guys that was the final k.o. face punch for me guys after this day i start just drinking a lot of alcohol and start using any drugs like a crystalmeth cocaine amphetamines some times heroin and extazys and all what happen on the street you know i was a drug addcited boy who don't give a fuck about live anymore and after all that im still alive guys and today, today i just smoke some weed and trying to learn something new like English like a how to play on royal and non stop i asking my self what will be happen if i was born not in European hell where stupid people haves more money then people who for real have a chance to change the world and where the goverment is the highest level and doesn't give a fuck about the lives of normal and cursed peoples anyway thank you for reading please leave a comment what do you think about my English skill which i had for few days of learning this language only by internet thank you and have a nice live gg