I Still Have Dreams Other Than My Health Goals 🍀⚕🏡🍉🍊🍎

I am on my bed 24/7 and I just would get up when I wanted to go to the bathroom to relieve myself and to take a shower. Sometimes I would not shower because I do not want to bother my parents much because they would wheel me up to our raised bathroom.

I was wondering if my parents especially my mother would be gone then I will indeed have a hard time even with a seemingly negligible activity like going to and from the bathroom.

I am just thankful that my parents are still around, i do not want to outlive them, it is just I do not want to die a lingering death which is why I am always going for my dialysis.

I also have a dream of renovating this old house which was built around the year 1983. Not much fixing had done to this house because there is no budget for that. My father is just an auto mechanic abroad and always gets no raise when he goes home and gets back again because he resigns until they do not want to hire old people anymore. So he stopped going abrod for work at the age of 50 about 22 years ago or so because of his bad judgement in my opinion.

Anyway even though it is so hot like an oven here in my room I would prefer to be in here than going outside where I am not comfortable too. The seats outside doesn't have a cushion so it hurts my skinny buttocks to seat on the bamboo sofa and the plastic seat at the back of the house.

I hope that I can really fix this home of mine because the corrugated steel roofing is already leaking and half of ot was already eaten by rust. Inside the house it is just ugly and not conducive in hanging out like siesta. So my parents just lay on the seat outside where they can enjoy a fresh air.

I just want that one day I can be in a place that I can relax, a small garden with some shade from a fast growing eucalyptus trees and grafted fruiting plants that gives either a seasonal fruits or all-year-round fruits.

But maybe I can do it here, a house with only two rooms and a combined living space and dining a nd cooking area. There is a need for washing clothes so I will also consider that not to mention buying a fully automatic clothse washer so thatmy mother will not get so burdened washing our clothes, she is getting old as well as my father.