sounds very dramatic ya i was once in a place like that its bad oryt depending on the way u take it but you just gotta take time out for yourself and just ask yourself do i need a light in the dark if so bring your light always be prepared for every situation if u ever feel like your mind is flooding wit ideas thats good but over thinking is bad for anyone because you think of the obv and the stuff that can go wrong if i were you id sit down id think of whats good enough for me and tbh if you dream big you gotta work hard who ever wakes up and say they already have theirs its lies because you only dream at night you cant wake up to your dream but you can always wake up happy