This week at work was a STRUGGLE!! It was frustrating and annoying and everything in between. This was also my Ovulation week..yay yay, which for me, is pure misery. I have issues with my ovaries..which in turn makes a lot of pain and CRAZY dips in emotion. So...you add my crazy work week with the stupid pain...you end up being a mean drawn back human. I have had a rough time trying to stay positive and keep upbeat.

One of my friends had posted on FB a post about how she has really had a hard last few months trying to get on top of her emotions...this woman has everything (seemingly so). So how would SHE have a rough time? She has lots of money, travels all the time, and lives life to the fullest. She is human, and will have bad days..shocking right?

Then, I just finished up another self help book called "Girl Wash your Face" by Rachel Hollis. It was a very good book. Nothing really stuck out to me, until the very end. She was talking about how she decided to train for a half marathon and that she HATED to run. But needed something to be her own accomplishment. And one of the last sentences hit me. She mentions how you should do something for yourself so you are YOUR OWN HERO. YOUR OWN HERO...sheesh. That is amazing!! Each day I try to accomplish personal development and I try to get a workout in every single day. But, I have never looked at everything I have been through as accomplishments.....really? REALLY?? I have endured being a "teen mom", watching my husband leave for war...multiple times, consoled our babies when all they wanted was their daddy, nearly decided to take my own life with a bunch of pain pills after my miscarriage in 2003, stood up for my kids, for my husband, for MYSELF....and I am NOT my OWN HERO??? HOLY POOP Y'ALL! How did I not see all of these things, and think...I am AMAZING?? As I work through personal development, it saddens me that I have been so incredibly hard on myself for so many years.

The truth is...we all have crappy days. We all have hard weeks, hard months, even hard freaking years. But, all in all we have a chance each new day we are blessed with, to improve from those hard times. That is all we can do, is improve with every mistake, or every hard lesson learned.

We try to look out to the future and decide what will happen or how it will happen, when in reality...we have absolutely no control of what, when or how. My goal is simple, focus on each day as the single day it is. Not reaching out to the future and wonder what it has in store for me. Enjoy each moment as it rolls through and absorb the goodness that follows with living in the now.

Today was a better day, I am grateful for that. I am grateful for the life I have been blessed with, and grateful for each new day!!