Discussion with God

Me:"God, I love you and right now I need you.My faith is weak.Holy Spirit, please breathe me through.All my weaknesses and doubts so I can be near you because this storm is too much for me to even see through.I don't know why tragedy comes and why you didn't intervene.Lord, I know that you heard their screams, so will you even listen to me?Why is it that you're absent?Why is it that you distant?You could've saved them in an instant, Lord did you miss it?Did you listen?Did you hear their cries?God did you hear their cries?Did you hear their cries God?Do you hear mine?

I know that you're there, but I need it to be true.I need your word to be more than just my proof.I trust you Lord, you know that I do, but I can't help but ask Lord.Where the hell where you?Because this wasn't supposed to happen, I can't believe that it was.But it's time like these that I see you more like a judge.Because if you were their father, then you would have got there.How can I look in that room and know that they're not there?This is beyond just not fair!Lord, did you just not care?I'm a loss for words and I think I will just stop there, because like that night.Lord, you aren't there..."

God:"My son, I'm here.I know that you cannot see it clear, but I was so near.I was with them through every tear.Please, know that my heart is broken like yours.What happened is not what I had in store.My plan does not include war, but sometimes a battle happens that I'm not for.I did not create it, but it's true I did allow it and my heart was breaking with them.But they were surroundet, they did not die alone.I had angels by the thousand, who comforted them in their pain and escorted them up the mountain.

I wish it wasn't this way.I wish that you didn't feel pain.I wish that you could see the sun through the rain but one day you will and you will call my name.I will be there in an instant and you will see my face.I cannot wait to hold you and tell you that I am so proud.I know your screams are loud and son I hear every sound.Please know that this is not the end and earth is not your home.I might feel distant in this moment but your pain is always known.One day all the mysteries will be shown, but until that day assured that you are never alone.