Am currently down

I don't know what to do. Am currently down, I keep thinking about my life everyday. What do the future hold for me. Am tired....... Which way again. How do you see yourself in the next 5 years, a successful business man or still a salesman.

Family responsibilities, am a first child, second to the head of the family. My mother is praying for success to me, my father is wishing me to live the best and fulfilling life. How would I pay them back. I Need to work hard.

Salary is no longer satisfying, I need a partial income. Oh I found it....... another stress added to my life. I had several sleepless nights, researching online, learning to share to followers. Dear God,, it's only you I rely on.

Now it's no longer interested the way I suppose it should be. I keep scrolling through my write-up. Man......you have a lot of work to do. Who is your mentor? Am like a lonely monkey in the forest, roaming around to find a better place to live. I got a discouraged message from my mentor but I didn't listen to it. At last, do you have anything to show for it? I think he was right or maybe he's wrong.

When would I get support........my mind js telling: see what others are doing learn from them. I see, the spirit is willing but the fresh us weak. I want to be a create writer, who will be my mentor. It seems am just roaming around for nothing. The monkey I brought to the forest has finally settled. Oh men........it no longer the best. I have done all.

Don't write again after all no body cares, do they? He would i know? Would they miss me? It better to cry out, don't hide your feelings. I shed tears.......am not doing enough. Where would I begin? So many thoughts in my mind.

What have you done to yourself? Is this a phone or an iron, with just turning on the data, it can iron thousand clothes. Well, how do you cope with that. Isn't that shameful? The version is outdated, no longer available. You're nobody, just give up.

Oh negative feelings, I know you're there to discourage me. I shall go through it and I will come back to prove you wrong. I don't know where to start but when I do, I will come back to share the secret with you.

Shedding tears doesn't mean am weak, Being emotional doesn't mean I can't be great again. It's a matter of motivation. I will find one for myself. No more jealous no more hatred. I will keep working hard, save the date February 4, 2025.

_{Sharing my emotional challenges, I will be fine}