I was in a long process of preparing to move, which started with learning the new language on my own, informing myself about laws and regulations, and finally because of the closed circle of "finding a job and finding a place to live" which depend on each other and make the process almost impossible, I had decided simply to go there and judge on the spot what could be done. Then I got sick and for the second month I can't recover. So my luggage is sitting at one end of the room half-arranged, in the new suitcase that I bought according to my current criteria and plans, almost everything is already bought and packed... and I can't go. That's the big controversy right now. I'm not one to just sit around and complain, bothering others with my problems. But it seems that this overwhelming stress of leaving for a place with no one to go to and not really knowing what you're going to do is proving difficult for my body to process. Also, I think it took me years to swallow the fact that abroad, I would have to do some very menial work while at the same time having a university degree in my home country. But that's the way it is, and now I'll even be happy to find any work at all, because as you say, the pay in other countries is decent even for simple tasks, and also, there are the most amazing positions, while in my home country they usually combine from 3 to 5 positions in one, usually low payed...
Thank you for your concern and advice! And for your support too! They really mean a lot in these difficult times!