MAMA DOESN´T LET ME DO COCAINE!

My mom doesn´t like me to do cocaine, but on the other hand she drinks and has done things as she pleased all her life. I don´t care any more if she likes it or not, actually i haven´t used coke for years but she still thinks i do consume.
My mother is a rich person but the only money cash i´ve seen i had earned by myself, the means are another thing. when i was a baby she hired a girl (GELES my true mother) to take care of me since i was the fourth and last child, i can understand she could use help and all of that, the thing i would never understand is how when it came to the point my mom realiced that i considered Geles my true mom and loved her so much that she got fired and i was told she was geting married and had to leave.
I was so sad u wouldn´t believe it, but i did shallow it and got on with my life, i was 4 years old.
The sad thing is that i have believed in the marriage story until a few months ago my sister told me the truth, im 45 years old now, let me tell u can cry worst than a baby when u realice your own mother can do something to her own son like she did, just out of envy, without mercy for the work of Geles her economy her love for me (she did take care of me as a true mother, somthing my true mother never did) and my love for her.
My true MOM would for sure let me do cocaine!
best regards

pepe