DROWNING [A comic where I try to explain how I feel]

Hey! how are you guys? I'm fine, drawing from time to time, sleeping a lot, the usual. Today I want to show you this attempt of doing a comic.

This comic took me four days to draw it maybe, I'm not sure. Honestly I think I could have done it in two days, but I haven't felt very motivated to draw lately. At first I didn't really know what to draw but at the moment I thought of something, it was as if my hands were disconnected from my brain. It has been a couple of frustrating weeks for me.

But, a few days ago I was able to make my ideas begin to take shape. I thought of several ideas to make a comic, I discarded some them because I didn't like how they were doing (this is the third attempt) and finally I was able to do something decent, and basically this is the result.

Basically, this is me trying to explain how I feel

These last few years have been a little hard not just for me but also for those around me, especially last year. For many reasons I felt the pressure of a somewhat uncertain future. It is difficult to explain how frustrating it is to know that things are not going to be as you came to think they would be. Things change, and that is not necessarily a bad thing. But things have changed so much that I don't know where to go anymore, I have had to deal with a feeling of helplessness for a long time, and somehow that has made me grow as a person.

At some point in this whole experience, I had to shut up the little girl inside of me who wanted to play at being kids forever. I realized that I had locked myself in a bubble for a long time, and that now I had to blow it up myself and face the reality. I would say that it has been a couple of years of personal discovery, of asking questions about myself that I never had the courage to do.

In short, I have been forced to face the real me. All my failures, my virtues, my insecurities, my limitations. It's not a very nice experience, but I think that some point we all have to go through that.

It's been hard, but honestly I think it could be worse. So more than complaining I just try to get something out of all this

The process

For this third attempt, I actually planned what I was going to do and you can see here in this very detailed sketch what my plan was, along with the color palette that I used.

I know, I know, It seems like I know what I'm doing. (σﾟ∀ﾟ)σ

Then I just started making my sketch.

Now I'm just going to show you, guys a little bit of the coloring process.

I'm not going to lie it was a lot of work to do this, more than anything because I did not know how to draw some things, In the end I decided to go for a very simple style. Also I was not sure how to give that effect as if I were underwater, bu, it was also a lot fun, so I hope you like it. (✿╹◡╹)

-Love, Eddy ♡