My Internal Battle of whether I should abandon SteemIt, or go all In, as a Newbie

	I really enjoy the process of creating a written piece of work, or creating a video ( like on my youtube channel ), and feeling good that I decided to choose the longer route of saying YES to Quality over Quantity. It just gives you a good feeling.

This is possibly the same kind of good feeling I get when I write a PHP class in a programming job, that is readable, and maintainable by future programmers who will have to figure out what the fk I was trying to accomplish.

The main subject that I've written about over the years, ( whether in a private discussion forum somewhere, or on my blog ), is Self-Help, and angled more into metaphysical realm such as Law of Attraction, or older New Thought writers. Topics like this take up time, on most occasions, to come up with something that is useable for anyone.

But in the past 4 days, I've seen many posts here on Steemit where someone is simply inserting a youtube clip, created by someone else, and that had me contemplating the real motive behind who posts what here.

Or I've seen ( I promise, this is the last complain-y paragraph in this post), posts where someone made a crude gif of the sentence: "1. Post in Steemit. 2. Upvotes Others 3. Make money" with a rainbow or something and then a happy face, and that's their entire post.

Are they hoping to just simply get upvotes in return for upvoting others, and to simply make it about the goal of posting anything, knowing they can and get upvotes? I was googling steemit and bots and trying to figure out if they use bots to get followers which then leads to more upvotes.

And then it hit me, that I don't have to care about any of the above. It's not my concern.

You see, I actually decided, I'm spending way too much time with my own blog, tweaking Wordpress plugins, trying to improve the look of the theme,
... but if you go to my Analytics menu of my Wordpress dashboard, the number of people visiting is pretty dismal. And I don't want to spend time, trying to get backlinks and trying to manipulate the world of the internet to see my blog.

As someone who reads a lot of material on the virtue of Intending an End Goal that you want, and just allowing yourself to receive path-of-least-resistance Inspired ideas toward that goal.. it would be so contradictory for me to continue to "go Upstream", as Abraham Hicks say a lot.

And My Goal is to have as many people view my stuff, so that they could benefit from my writing as much as possible.

Trying to maintain my own blog, with all of that time expenditure, won't help anyone!

The foremost thing I need to do, is change my attitude.

All I know is that, when it inspires me to write, I log into Steemit, and write, and whatever happens, happens. I realize I should be writing every day according to many articles I've read, but honestly, it's probably going to be every other day, because I may not have something in a "complete enough thought", for me to stop what I'm doing, go to my PC and start typing.

Just thinking out loud and figured I'd express :)